Elucidating Questions

So, from the rabid internet, in the past twenty four hours

Women can be good at things until they’re not white, at which point they must be men

Being born with a vagina doesn’t make you a woman (what a relief)

We would rather see men hit a woman than a strong woman hit another strong (allegedly, ACAB) woman even if it’s in a sports capacity

White woman tears, as usual, will bring them out in a great showing.

Europeans think they’re better than North America meanwhile there are people in the UK and Spain hitching on for the transphobia

Like, whatever man, you think you’re so superior and that only proves than you can’t possibly be

It is dangerous to be anything other than the prescription of woman

I keep thinking about the athlete, I’d be losing my mind

It’s really unfortunate

This need to police what is and isn’t

Just let people be

And apparently we’re just going to blindly trust what a Russian agency said

Sure, no, cool, Russia has never been untrustworthy

Ever

In any way

I’m pretty sure things just lit on fire in heaven with my saying such lies

Even in jest

People are incredibly cruel, aren’t they?

Shame on humanity

Called a woman a pig

Felt bad about it for a moment

Then there was a meme that said

Don’t be the bigger man

And I was like

Damn right

Fuck that condescending bitch

If it hadn’t been Facebook I would have taken off the gloves

Ah well

Nasty people today

Just full of themselves

Self important

Boring ass bitches

Got one bitch calling herself a scientist (she turned out to be a lab specialist) so she knows that this poor woman is a man

Got one bitch quoting literacy rates at me

Because apparently I’m stupid

And illiterate

That’s fine

Don’t speak my language

But it’s foolish to think I’m stupid

I am

Calculating

And shrewd

This life has taught me nothing more than that every person has no clue how stupid they actually are

And you just have to wait for someone to do something stupid

And someone will always do some stupid

I, at least, don’t think I’m brilliant

Don’t even think I’m that bright

But I am comfortable in knowing that I know little

This stupid woman is now spamming me with something

Either that or Facebook has glitched 7 times in the past five minutes

Who knows, she wasn’t worth my time to start with

She claims to be the smarter of the two of us,

And proudly proclaimed that I’m Islamophobic

While I’m non-binary and flying a Palestinian flag in my profile picture

Yah I’m sure

Anti-religion in general?

Yah

Anti-specific beliefs?

No I don’t claim to know enough about most religions to hate them for being them

Just the religions themselves for being coercive and full of contradictions that only favour the predominant race, of the male variety, who come from that religion

Oh and they’re usually rich

How strange

How strange

It’s not strange

It’s functioning as intended

Anyways

Sure, smite me for being concerned about a person’s safety

That had literally nothing to do with Islam because I didn’t know Islam was involved.

Stay mad bitch

Stay mad

Look up

You’re certain to find a shooting star

Listening to the night unfolding around me

Why are you honking as you’re driving

It’s 10pm

They went on for a while too

Humans

They really do confuse me

I thought if I put my soul to paper

Eh, internet

It would somehow make a mark

Be worth something

Those words

I wish I could remember them

Even though they’re not real

It seemed like something important

Who knows

What I’m even doing here

I thought so many things

Is it big enough yet?

Can you get past the crazy part of me?

Can anyone?

Tires screeching

It’s night time so it’s time to speed

Because reduced visibility is more fun to speed in

Or something

My nighttime is back

And I’ve taken all the consolation prizes

I don’t feel like there will anything ever as valuable

As his words

Hanging on to every one

Never having a clue what they actually mean

I was going to write about how terrifying men are but then the stars distracted me

The only thing more distracting

I hope that poor woman

Can still find happiness in her life without her husband

That she isn’t left yearning for him years long

All the good partners were taken long ago

And I’m not interested in destroying a happy ending

No interest at all

If only there was a greeting

Worth response

If you look at them they disappear

I’m not unlike that light

There are the sirens again

I don’t know what I expected

It wasn’t this though

I don’t suppose you wanted to be someone’s muse

Sorry

Have I said that enough?

I’m sorry

That’s it that’s what I want to say to you

Thank you and I’m sorry

I wish I could tell you that

But I don’t know if it will ever be enough

I’m trying though

I wonder who will remember me?

Am I going to disappear like all my ancestors?

Gone to time

And I suppose this will be my accomplishment

This… This

It’s not much

He said as much

Silence says a lot more than one would think

Rather poured it out

Than created with my own two hands

How many pages of erased text?

Will it persist?

Beyond me?

It’s not enough to make a living off of

Heh, I have in fact made nothing for any of my works

So there it goes I guess

There it goes

I wish I wasn’t nothing

Not wanting anything other than to be

Nothing more

The cool evening breeze is creeping in

As if me feeling it means I’m not nothing

Yet here I am

I’ve been waiting here for a while

And no one has noticed me

How apt

This song

Sometimes you say goodbye over and over and over again

It hit me today Mel

You again

And I’d been expecting it

But not like that

A customer came in to return jeans

They were late

They were late because she bought them for her husband

And then he died

And my god

Over and over and over and over

My heart was seeking it

Telling me I had been

Too well

Excuse the past month I just barely existed in

But I didn’t expect to come smashing into a wall

It’s a wall

I’ll just live in you for a bit Chester

All this pain

Is there a universe where you lived?

Now I don’t know if I’m talking about Chester or Mel

I’ve wondered

Why you left me here

Just one more goodbye

It’s never hello

Yes, quiet

Like it’s been a loud day

If I had any power at all

I’d undo all the final mistakes

Go to the dark place that held them

Take their hands and help them out

Looking for someone and all I’m finding is you

Are you somehow watching even when I’m not aware?

Aren’t there more important people?

I underestimate

Is it strange I can see this grin

Cheeky

Knowing

Well, however

Work was a fucking gong show

Suddenly we’re doing everything differently because of the new manager

They now expect me to reprice over half the returns we get

While still being solo on cash

Oh, by the way, you’re the only associate in the store

Man

And I really need things but can’t afford them

I wonder what I’m working for?

So much effort for nothing

I am exhausted

That was a lot of feeling for one day

Corporate bootlicker managers

Well, I should say, one manager

Ah, well,

We coexist

Well

I bend over backwards to coexist

They do whatever they want

I don’t know if you’ve ever actually felt heartbreak

My life is full of it

They never live up to my hopes

I learned not to have expectations

Is there even a place we only know?

Acadia is gone

My forest is gone

My place

I haven’t found another

I’m sure it’s different

For the other

I wish I could go back to Japan

I wish I had a way to go back

No, I’d rather forget about you

Forget about everything about this life

Everything

I wish I could forget about you like I forget everything else

Wake up one day and have no idea who you are

If only

If only my brain didn’t know your voice

Recreate it in my dreams

I wish this was a world were I didn’t have to struggle

This came on

Ever after か

ないよそんなのは

Somehow I’ll make it without that

Love is something other people experience

I’m merely here to observe