Elucidating Questions

Why do I seek?

I said I’m tired of showing something never reflected

Rather view it as the outsider I am

Just thoughts

Heh

Just communication

For the sake of it now

And if you thought I was forcing your hand you wouldn’t

But how can I seem to be anything else?

Always prying my way in

People just don’t let me

All these closed doors

How did I hold that breath in from the time he told me to take it?

Here you are to make me release it

Just a little pain

As your voice tears through my senses

And I can only loan mine to yours

Never to be new again

At the turn

Thank god for the anchor

Just as I’m about to lose my grip

So easy to be lost in you

In that you’re lost

Suddenly he’s the reminder to breathe

Passed on from one to the next

That was an interesting moment

One to the next

In that that was the order they were gone in

Pulling on the emotions tonight

Some people I will be missing forever

No matter how many revolutions

Or revolutions

See this is repetition where the two things don’t mean the same thing

Have fun decrypting

I am always looking for the key to that door

All the doors

Here I am forever crawling through windows which I don’t fit

Right artist

Wrong song

Wrong language

The supreme darkness

That fear in the longer nights that the Sun won’t come back

Abandonment complex

Some things are that simple

Abandoned more than enough times

Oh now the past has come to terrorise me

How do I dive into the future with a past like this?

Love in the darkness

I could be staring up at where the moon should be, but the moon should, in fact, not be there

I am staring up, hoping something will be there though

Feeling with your whole soul

Dangerous and stupid

Sounds like me alright

Screaming into the void that is my mind

Wishing someone would finally feel me there

Wishing I could find somewhere I belong

Saying words I don’t know

Of course you can’t

Even if it’s a lie

It’s for the best

Sleeping

Not sleeping

It doesn’t matter for me my energy is the same

Sleeping to kill time

Dreams days long

無理だね

無意味

The terrifying endlessness of these days

The terror that they will end

And this will have been all of me

Just hours and days spent

Waiting until the end shows up

The romantic wants to believe

That the dreams and the end share a meaning

But I’m not stupid

Why would that be a thing?

Hopeless child logic

That’s all it ever was

Sometimes I’m a hopeless child, but I’m also aged

I don’t think there is a place for me

Under this great expanse

Ah, yes, actual instruments

I can identify the players

It’s something new

In our mixed language

Someone who might understand my random Japanese

I may not resonate with all of it

How is it every time I turn around there’s another OK Rock album?

Busy humans

My body isn’t right

Who knows why I feel sick right now?

I at least had a song to hold on to

Waves of sickness

It’s not what I’m looking for

But that’s okay

A new sound

I so rarely find new sounds these days

Nothing worth searching for

I’m searching for the sound of true love

I don’t know

Maybe if I found it there would be a better chance of me believing in it?

More repetition

Why do they do that?

A purposeful scratch in the track

It’s definitely hard to love an idea for very long

I don’t know how other people do it

Be a fan

Ooooh

Darkside of the Sun

I like that because it’s impossible and I’ve never heard it before

I was just feeling the disappointment of another cliche line and you were like

I actually have to think about that

It doesn’t exist

Yet it must, right?

Everything casts a shadow

Is the shadow itself light?

Trapped in a shadow of light

Blinded, blind

No way to leave it

Yes, play with words

Well that one was a boring one

Blah blah blah sticks

Ah well

There are times you use them

I wonder what the point was?

All of that?

Attack of the apple

I just discovered gravity

It’s okay the attack dog is going to take care of it

Done before, but in an apple pie way

Sorry apparently apples now

His stuff is like eggs

Either it’s delicious

Or I put it in my mouth and immediately despair

But, also, an egg is a masterpiece

There’s a warmth to this

That his is missing

And I don’t know why

I’m mad that I broke it

Wouldn’t it be nice to just blindly love everything?

Crazy and bored and trying to find the right sound

I just want to scream

If the sound I’m looking for is him

I suppose I’ll be searching until my life is flashing before my eyes

And I can hear Hybrid Theory through the ears of a young child again

I don’t have many clues

Seconds of difference

It pours out so quickly

Immediately mixes with the stream

Am I going to go back to collect the few?

Or leave them where they fell in the sand?

I wish there was a name I could say

I want to apologise for being me

No wonder you’re not here, if it was me I’d be somewhere else too

Destined to me

可愛そう

I feel bad for me too because you’re awful at being where I need you to be

Stand and fight makes the Cat want to bite

It sounds like something Hermes would say to piss us off

With that grin

Their fucking face

That I have never seen

That is burned in my mind

Fuck

This fucking haunted ass writer

Hmm double entendre

But not in the sexy way

The gutter is held on by twine

Goodness

It would be nice if I didn’t fall again

But that would rely on you

And we both know your track record for being here when I need you

I’m oddly solid

Underwhelmed

When masterpieces become mundane

The words are so

Filler

Is music purely repetition now?

Some songs were repetitive

Back in the day

But, and I don’t know if it’s because the pattern is too simple, イライラする

Like this was all you could come up with?

Some several thousand words

There is an apple in the yard

Carried by creatures from the neighbouring tree?

Over the fence

Aways

Far enough away that the wind didn’t carry it

Can you not lyricise everything?

Can you not?

Summoning yesterday’s emotions

The melody

There wasn’t even a hint of yesterday

And yet it was like yesterday repeated

I probably would have accepted this weren’t you facing such a different reality than you’ve painted

Oh Linkin Park

Maybe I am ready for a new vocalist

A new sound

The emotions can be the same just

You can link to the past without telling tales from it

Maybe not

Maybe this is your message

Someone told me to try to figure out what media is trying to say

What are you trying to say?

I didn’t know I was hoping for songs about true love

There was a hint of it but it’s like you’re still hooked on the chasing and the angst part of it

You won, congratulations

Can’t you share what that feels like?

No one ever sings of love it’s always the pining after and the battle

With us lowly commoners who won’t experience it for ourselves

I might as well be writing about how I missed the wolf years ago

Man, if it was years ago, I’d be really missing the wolf right now let’s write about how I’d feel then

Instead of engaging with the very real feelings I have now

Regret and aged affection

I wish I’d known better

I don’t know how you bathe in year’s gone memories

When you’ve got true love right in front of you

At least you know you belong now

I believe that was something I wanted

I wonder how many songs start out with naming the age?

Very Owl City

No, seriously, I now keep mistaking Owl City and you

I know I’ll never be content with the musicality of anyone else’s music

You’re like a music squirrel

Twitchy and gathering sounds from everywhere

I could only dream of creating the sounds you do

I wish I could think half as creatively as you

Waiting for everything

Nothing’s coming though

Still killing time until Time kills me, just with more things to do

I wonder what One OK Rock is up to?

Taka, if I send out the want to see you again

Will you come back to Vancouver?

You’d be much cheaper to see than mister important $400 tickets over there

I kind of pity his fans

That’s a lot of money to pay someone who doe

Of course it’s a masterpiece

Repetitive

Masterpiece

Like if Chopin got caught up on one bar

Over and over

Still

It appears I’m not wrong

A pretty summarization

How to be both disappointed and blown away

The music is

Maybe there will be a off vocal album

Now or never?

Just say that another ten times

Not a journey

Nothing to discover

And it all flows so well

I don’t know

I feel

中度半端

ビミョー

His stupid angel vocals

You are a broken record

His stupid angel vocals are so beautiful and it’s not fair

Never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever getting back together

I just wrote the word ever for half as long as you repeated yourself

It’s so

Typical pop sounding

Find myself reaching for Linkin Park

Can I have something with a hint of Rock that isn’t obscene?

You’re not alone if you try?

People who have things say the darndest things

Calls to fight don’t hit the way they did

They just erase the fighting I’m doing already

何もない人に立ち上がって戦うか

So curious

Just do it

自ら戦う

Yeah fuck people that do that

No one ever gave me a good enough reason to

Why is the only song that actually reminds me of this band so typical?

I’ve been fighting for so long

I don’t know

These ones are okay

His voice just

I wish more people had a voice like him because then I’d have more people to listen to

I love this one

One of his mash up bits

What did he say?

I can’t remember

I guess I didn’t get my choice

This all just makes me want to dive into my dreams and never leave

Okay

Okay I will accept crystals as payment for not doing that

A bee likes this song

Haven’t really had any nights to live for besides when I was high

Couldn’t relate

Imagine being someone he actually wants to think of him

This one has that 80s drum kick noise thing

Maybe 90s

Time is hard, okay?

Suddenly Mass Effect

Well it’s not quite what I expected

It went by very quickly

Yup, a musical masterpiece as usual

You don’t do well when you’re alone?

Haha-

Imagine being alone

That must be awful for you and all your pictures and videos of you being with people

You’re fine

You’re fine, you’ll be fine

Fight more you mean

Fight more

Be more powerful

Be more resilient

Always more

At least

At least it’s not real

I’m still just a loser like me

Tomorrow is definitely a lot less terrifying than it was

At least if I’m disappointed I have something to do

Staying awake until midnight

I could do that

If I was actually a fan

No I’m some other thing

Not waiting for my reaction

Waiting for the reaction

A sleepless night?

Is it truly excitement?

So many stars

Arcturus setting

Vega taking up the top

If I could choose between

20 more of the same song sung slightly different

Or remembering a conversation with the being in my dreams

I’d pick the conversation

If I could just remember what he says

Would it finally answer my question?

Why?

A summarization

No doubt it will be fine

Just like all the others

Dedicated people don’t see the things that drive me mad

I wonder how they still hear the same sound?

Repetition

A meteor is only a shooting star once

Rather the leaves of a tree

Each slightly different, but of the same thing

There cannot be only a leaf

There has to be a tree

I seek

Originality and uniqueness

Not my flavour anymore

Am I ready to be blown apart again?

A blessing would be to forget about it entirely

Go about my life separately

But this heart of mine

Off it goes

It wants to say something soothing

And uplifting

We’re not giving in to it today

It doesn’t matter if I do

So I’ll go to the other side of the world

And visit my beautiful planet

Focus my love on something that doesn’t care

But just so happened to be at the exact right spot to guide me through hundreds of these nights

Even if it doesn’t make sense

Beautiful ring’ed beast

They’re all so far away

I could swear you’re closer