Elucidating Questions

I was playing Wii on the bus

And had the thought

Here we are at the future

I’m playing a console on a little device

My tamagotchi have Bluetooth and wifi capability

My finger prints were taken by a machine

But it’s nothing like the idealists envisioned

Because we couldn’t love each other

Couldn’t cooperate

Instead of technology lifting up society

They put a dollar amount on it

Kept it locked up for only the rich to utilise

Anyone who really needs it can’t afford it

Let the few dictate the lives of the many

Someone rode beside the bus on an electric scooter

They scorned those trying to do right by the world

We have arrived at the future

But paradise is no where in sight

Only for those with pockets deep enough to forget the ticking time bomb they’ve turned our planet in to

And I can search for anything on the internet, but it will produce far right wing, slanted, false information as fact

Because they paid more

Instead of enshrining community

We played those with less against each other

Individualistic people are praised

Humanity has no goal besides making as much money as possible

Money being a fictitious thing allegedly created to ease the trade of goods

Rather than preserving our planet

Welcome to the future

You can watch the hockey game anywhere

No one can afford basic needs

But you can order something from China and have it be there in two weeks

And they’re talking about record breaking sales and gains while saying things are so expensive they just have to put up the price

But you can order groceries to your door

Which helps disabled people

But the people delivering the order aren’t being paid enough

And they keep talking about the economy

Like people without money can spend money

But if you’re in debt you’re a bad person

And you’re a slave to a number they made up in the 80s

And also the corporation who pays debt slave wages.

Or you’re just a cubicle filler

And if you die they won’t find you for days

Was all of this connected to freedom somehow?

And they all think they’re free

But the government has been slowly positioning policy that makes a corporation more human than an actual person

And they won’t pay disabled people or people between jobs enough to live off of

But if you’re a struggling corporation

Here’s a few million dollars

The future

Here we are

AI does art while children sew garments

Machines orbit the Earth

While humans stand on her, growing hotter

Growing more volatile

And just keep pushing her

If the bubble bursts

The clouds will leak into space

Ah, the future

Your phone is watching you

But it’s also basically a requirement of life at this point

God

What the hell are humans doing?

Sometimes I yell at Google translate when I’m translating into Japanese

Don’t you dare put it in katakana!

I may have just over stepped

But you put that article there for a reason right?

You knew what I was going to do

But

But I have to

Somehow I have to keep everyone safe

Nothing is as perfect as it seems

But I’m sure he has reasons

He has reasons too

Two damaged from the mega tsunami created by your loss

In completely different ways

And I don’t know what your relationship was like

But even if it’s meaningless like everything else I had to try

Say something encouraging

I suppose my fear is unfounded

You’ve known me

You know me

And I may not know what’s right and what’s wrong

If you’re just a memory

Of what I thought you were

怒りが感じない

Learning new words

Always learning

It’s alright right?

Just another drop in the bucket

I should stop assuming my words are important

That they have any power in this world

You’re right I did wake without the night

It’s cloudy though

I want to mean something

Prove my existence

Could I ever stand as tall as you did, with so many demons watching over?

You’d think I did something today

I’m so tired

Will I wake tomorrow the same?

Free of the night’s clutches

Yet still in the dark

The Sun can shine

And be the light that guides me

I’m still in darkness

I don’t know if I want the Sun to set or if I want it to rise

In the day I can pretend

Something could happen today

But once the darkness sets in again

It’s obvious it’s just the same old day again

The same old revolution

Thousands of miles from where we started

I’m still in the exact same place

I want to strike it

The darkness

Bite

Punch

Kick it

But it’s not an entity

Merely a promise

From me you will go, but to me you will always return

And I thought there would be a trick

That love was an answer to a missing piece so jagged

And the pain does run

Through my veins

My eyes weeping as if I’m always crying just a bit

Can’t I stop it from overflowing?

My soul which demands answers?

Demands to know why this is as it is

I can’t see the stars

Not mistaken

Gazing at the sky

I can’t get out

Of this life

Of the body

The pain may as well be my soul screaming to get out

Lock me in this mortal shell

Maybe that makes me powerless

But the words pour

My fight

Restless and angry underneath

Is this to settle it?

Crazy

Of course I’m crazy

Even the mad scientist has one guy

Who have I got?

Who wouldn’t cower away if they saw me?

Oh nevermind

Indeed

Maybe it is too late for thinking

Send me a lullaby then

Writing for no reason

That’s the opposite

I’m just an 悪霊

The disappearing blue flame

Well now I can’t take that sentence seriously anymore

Did you see that cool trick?

I hurt myself and laughed at the same time

Of course you didn’t

You didn’t see what my phone just did

You meddling spirits

You’re all I have

But you have no tact

Yes too soon

Another day is gone

This is such a long and lonely path

How far should we go?

I don’t know

If I had a choice I’d have bailed long ago

I’m here though

Never ending dream

Except the dreams

Which end

But the day feels like a dream

Sometimes I don’t know what was and wasn’t

Is it real?

Or just another shard of my mind?

Does there have to be this endless march?

One foot in front of the other

But it’s led me here

A place without anyone

And without anyone

It’s just me

All the me’s

Us

And it might not be over for us

But it’s over for any idea of us with anyone but us

I sought connection

And found none

Seek it out and ye shall find?

Something a rich man says to make himself believe it was his seeking that bright him fortune

And a poor man says to make himself believe he just hasn’t sought hard enough

The lucky

The unlucky

She’s finicky

Silent and sinister

Some people have it

Some don’t

And, yes, it is the dice cast again and again

Your either roll well or not

I roll critical at strange times

Yes still searching this city

For someone no where to be found

Am I on the wrong planet?

Are you out there?

Do you hear me?

My heart calls

Calls to no answer

I thought someone was there

But it was just my imagination

Terrifying things imaginations

Powerful

Corrupt

No one has found me

To never forget

That the connected hand was false

And knowing it

Without forgetting

Without forgetting is hard

It’s fine

He couldn’t hear it

No one can