Elucidating Questions

It showed up on its own in the form of a book in the form of a card with the playful bubbles by its side.

Creation for the sake of creation with fizzing over boiling all over it takes over.

A new beginning hidden in the arms of time who stares over the expanse with a sigh

Stares over the expansion with a sigh

As the rain pours down and the footprints get washed away in a quiet contemplation recuperation

Solitude in a frozen land,

Is it one or all or none.

Her whispers in the ocean.

The silent balancing act performed by everyone and everything

Things wanted things needed things unknown

With the knight at the side, who thinks he stands alone and I don’t think he does.

I love him so.

The first of my heart but the one who is forever gone

Someday somewhere somehow.

I hope.

Impatient

He says it often

Scoff, snicker, grin.

Turning away to leave I think

Jerk.

Because I know he’s right that’s why.

And gone in a flash I know he doesn’t exist in a place where I’ll ever have him in my arms or be able to feel and see and understand.

You’re only allowed because you disarm me with yourself and I know you don’t mean it like

I can’t wait

I know you mean it like

Waiting in agony watching the clock

Seeing the seconds tick by tick tick

Minutes hours days weeks

In meaningless slots of time set aside

To wait.

You don’t hear the ringing in my ears as I look up and think I want to help them

Take their pain away they’re all so sad.

I’m sorry you lost someone.

It got louder in here though not quieter.

How long until it’s so loud I can’t hear anything else?

Why?

I’d take it from you if I could

Fill the cracks of your heart with gold because the most beautiful pottery is shattered and put back together.

Woven in between the fractures filled with warmth and comfort.

Love.

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

Sent in every direction I can think of

I love you

In one.

You’re there somewhere,

I hold out a hand I have to say something

I’m so sad,

But for profound reasons I cannot ever explain and I’m sorry,

I am.

I’m sorry you lost someone.

I love you.

It’s an arch but it’s a roadway,

Some lines but it’s so defined.

Away into the horizon of a simple blue line.

Seven thousand stars.

But I didn’t count the twins.

Ten thousand stars.

But I didn’t count the the triplets.

Fifteen thousand stars.

But I didn’t count what I can’t see.

A number I don’t know.

But I didn’t count the ones that are gone.

Stuttering human bonds,

Uneven footing, stepping over the ground.

The arduous bonds of human society.

The birds that walk, chained

By gravity of time and those silent rules.

These strange birds that don’t fly.

They walk.

Stuttering, they walk.

Because I can stand here and listen to what you’re singing and feel the drum beat in my heart

And feel the strings as they’re pulled and listen to your melody

But I don’t have your name yet, can you tell me.

I’d like to take you with me I love your sound I can tell you work well together,

The music all works.

I can’t bring them with me if I’m afraid to ask, but I’m always afraid to ask.

Five is a good number.

I’d like to follow them.

See sometimes these words sound like conversation and I want to reply, but who knows what and who and how.

Probably nothing.

Probably everything.

I love that words are shared without the perfect meaning understood.

Thanks for sharing.

Or something.

I don’t know what I’m doing

I said to you and you were silent.

Smoke billowing out from lungs and self derisive laughter.

Maybe I’ll sleep now,

The reply was soft but we did.

Followed into dreams and it was poignant to have someone actually

There

A partner in the endless dreams that continue every night unbidden.

Do you even know how much time has passed?

Isn’t September better than every other September.

Do you hear the songs and then feel the same as I do as I hear

Better days and

Really? When?

It hurts to think that anyone could think I’m not serious but in the reality next to me I keep doing this

And that.

Well it happened backwards or the signed exploded into a million pieces and

The sadness and anticipation of a life that will change forever

Out there somewhere is the key to my spirit.

Oh it’s still happening,

From one to one trillion trillion trillions.

It’s just something that happens unwitting.

There’s no answer there and the reverberation of crashing against a solid wall.

But our there I can go so far.

Do you see the clouds between the stars I wonder why I see them

There’s light there in shapes but I don’t see where it came from it’s deeper than the ocean.

When the screen comes down and the closest star

I don’t feel like I love them right.

If only if only

I hear them whispering at me, when I couldn’t find them they found me.

You know what the question is.

You know what the answer is.

Dangerous stuff I laughed and the ravens landed.

Shouldn’t be playing with it, he knows I’m not playing with it.

Fearsome twisting ability.

I put them down because I didn’t want to anymore.

Now I don’t care.

Six cards six cards six cards.

I still don’t know why, but at least I can have some fun before I die.

Don’t tell me stories I’m too tired to hear them.

Blinking so brightly what are you doing over there hyper activity are you still playing this game with me

You beautiful something don’t you dare go out why is that all I can think of.

There’s nothing I could do to stop it but I stare out and think if I think about it loud enough.

I tried to find them I couldn’t find the right map but I know where they are

Will it change the entire sky?

Forever?

This twisted want to see something come from something that has no answers.

Tell me somewhere out there what are the odds of it and if and when and beautiful

But I know it means there is so much more than the ones who stand around me is it

Bigger?

It’s comical,

If that’s the way one size up for each size.

That’s logical I suppose.

Though whether it is or isn’t on the grand scale.

How old was the old old old one who made us,

Was it in the right mind?

It’s so much bigger than me I raise my tiny hand to try to reach out and say something

How can you see me?

I’m too small.