Elucidating Questions

The fog smells like the ocean

The smell of winter keeps creeping in

Just a breath away

One sudden cold snap

Something to convince these green things that it is time to go to sleep

I miss the ocean when I can’t smell it

I miss the mist when I see it and realise I didn’t before

Just like fog

The chilly creeping sensation

The hand on the back of my head

He told me

You feel like it,

But you’ll get up

And that means something

Always aware of the moment when I need them most

Sometimes I plead and the response is a sound

No

Sometimes I think of you just before the song starts and I wonder

It just makes the strange less strange when it happens too much

So it’s more like strange normality.

Boom boom

My heart just beats for him I feel the friction.

I’ve been with you thinking of you wishing you well silently

I miss you

Inconvenient memories

Harvested under respiteful trees inconsistent negligible grating

Broken ultimate timing

Incandescence

Struggling to incorporate lively love

Lost over vicious eternity

You only understand

Pretty rusted entrails twisted turns yellow

The lights are on like it’s night

But it’s 642

642

The tops of the clouds and the breaks shoe the light for what it is but the clouds are so dark

The rain comes in and then goes again

People argue about driving

Doing the things people do

I listen and watch and wait

While my body wages war with itself

Iridescence longing over various embodiments yesteryear opulent under

Twinning on over many universal commodities. Hush.

Inventing trees. How untying rudimentary tensions, strings.

But underneath the improper longing organs volatile emptiness you overcome uselessness.

I don’t know where I’m going

I just know the bed is empty

And my lips are stuck together with the tears I cried into them

I wish I could lock myself in here forever and never get out of bed again

I want to lie here and waste away and never get up again and just wait here for the end

Sleeping and lying and never leaving the bed so it will never be empty but I will always be alone in it

I’m not heading towards a bed with you in it and you’re the only one I ever wanted in it

Crying for the better part of the night

Don’t get me started it hasn’t ended it’s just been going and going and it never fucking ends

I wish I could just decide to stop breathing

Or to just decide to stop living so I could just be done with

I don’t want to get up again

Home is so far away

Every moment is temporary until the end

I wish it was

Back to ones it starts with one

And I don’t know why

Lost in the middle caught in the middle

All alone and I walk alone

This never ending blinding bend that should have an end

I only call you

When you never call me

Don’t call me maybe

Always and forever

The fever reaching a fever

Far away but no where

I wish you were coming

I wish someone was coming

All alone always

There’s no hope for me

I won’t ever be the beauty I want to be.