Elucidating Questions

Do you want some water?

An innocent request

In a Japanese setting it would be like

水しかないけど、せめて飲め

I’m offering you because you are welcome to it

I couldn’t refuse

Some how one cup of water made some of a difference

You sneaky snake

Smart that one,

Hidden in the actions

My lips had been chapped

I can’t imagine she noticed

But he did

Tricky trickster

“You’re welcome”

What for?

Substances competing

I feel my heartbeat slowing down I know it will speed up

Depressants depressants anti depressants

If I drink the anti with the depressant will the depressant become anti will the anti become depressant

Or will they become nothing

Oh imagine nothing

Imagine floating in a nowhere nothing

Where I could sleep forever

Nothing to wake me from my dreams

Nothing to take me from the people that care about me

The nonsensicality of my own brain

But they say it disconnects

But I often call myself out

Stop being ridiculous this may be a dream but stop it

The only place I’m actually in control of my brain

Even when I’m fighting against it

We both have to be near death to get my win in

But it wins eventually

When it gangs up with time

And the alarm is ringing

And I’m crying

You’re always so kind

You just came out and said it

You’re not him

You’ll always treat me better

I love you so much for seeing I would cry if I thought he was you and you couldn’t stand it

Either to save your own face or mine I don’t care because it comes out so kind

Don’t despair in having lost someone who isn’t me

He’s not me

That’s

It shouldn’t make it easier

But it will

It still hurts

But he doesn’t come home

When he left I told him go and come back but he didn’t hear me but he was worried

Or was he trying to save his own face

There are similarities

Don’t you deny

But you have always been so kind

When you asked if it was over

And you just walked away

But you didn’t walk away

When I knocked at the door years later and asked if I could stay

That sigh of annoyance

But you held me anyway

Why can’t I find you?

I’d love to

I’ll say

I missed you you’re beautiful I love you you’re so kind

I’ll say I’ll be yours if you’ll be mine

He didn’t want me and wouldn’t deny but he left me here screaming to die

Hear screaming to die

And names are things other people give us

So I named myself

And you did too

And somehow I always come back to you

I know I’m not faithful

I can’t even look straight

But you came to me when I asked

And you didn’t leave me in pain

I just found the clock ticking in obsession

I just found the person I was singing

But not who I was singing too

I saw you

Winged death Master

I love you

I love you so much you’re beautiful

I don’t know why I must know where obsession needs to go

Dancing between the lines

Lost in dreams that are

Unreliable?

He came when I asked him to

Didn’t he?

I love you

I wish you could love me too

You’re spilling over

Stealing from the wrong place

But you’re the door aren’t you?

The metal one

The full metal one

Named after my step sister

You want to share the blame?

When you did nothing.

Kinder than anyone will ever know

You’d say it I know

How do I share it with you?

The ancient feather was right

I can’t forgive myself

I need a bird who will guide me back to the dream

But he died before he got here

He’s already buried

I’m at the bottom of the well and the ocean and the pit

I flew into a blackhole for fun

It was better than this

ちょっとどう言う意味?

ないって?

I don’t know what that means yet.

Now the light of the moon is guiding me through the night

I love you

I wish I could see you again

I wish I knew someone like you

You’ll always treat me better

I know that

I love you

But it’s all the same I know the lambs are silent

I know there are many

I know I am one

Okay

Then all the crap about well this dilemma of the present and future

Yeah

I can’t be what you want me to be

Sorry

This world has become such that people with true kindness and love are silenced and I’m broken as it is.

There’s no fixing this mess of me.

I woke up.

And learned how heartless the world has become.

You say and that’s exactly why I take the shards and walk forward

I say that’s exactly why nothing I ever have to say will matter.

When I wear the halo of the sun I continue in silence

When I wear the halo of the moon I despair

When I feel the wings I discovered at my back

I told myself if I was a good little moon rabbit lamb fish I’d be okay

But I was wrong.

What is it?

I’m not a firework.

He told me that with his silence.

I can act the part

When I want to

The quirk comes out when I’m bored

They don’t know part of me enjoys

The look of what the fuck

Because I notice things others won’t and I say them outloud anyway

But you don’t know what’s really happening in my brain

I hide it away

If I tell you you won’t want it

But I think we’re all haunted

There’s no way I’m the only one who can hold a conversation with the sun

Pluck galaxies from the skies

See the messages as they arise

Right?

I say it’s my brand of crazy but I can’t be the only one who holds hands with the messenger just for fun

Or feels the gaze of the ♄ silent and warm

Fights with Mars to fight for him

Right?

The games they play don’t really involve us but I was involved by accident

When the door opened

I remember the door

I went to too many times

But I think they just let me inside

Yes I’m mildly psychic don’t get excited

I read the predetermined

And there is so little that is

So it’s not a good problem to have

Long ago lalala

Yes

I know

All I have to do to know the future is read the past

How long will this insanity last?