Elucidating Questions

I’ll have to do this every day for the rest of my life

Turning away from the only light and instead trapped in this fucking hell of everything

While having no one to relate to

You’re all so simple

My lip curls on its own

I do wonder where Harry Potter and Snape came from but I’m not concerned dreams are dreams.

This is the hell I wake in.

I keep doing this

You say it wasn’t every day because even if I don’t say anything here you don’t see what happens outside

Fuck I’m sick of a story

A stupid continuation that can’t end because I promised

I do it before I realise it and before I know it I’m spent but this is my life

Cursed

Ron Weasley is a fucking coward who needs to fucking step it up.

You can run forever

Coward

Run away and stay in your safe place because you’re a coward

It can’t be helped if you can’t open the door

Obviously you locked it

You want me to leave and disappear

You selfish prick

I keep living even if you don’t hear me

You selfish prick

You coward

I warned you I’d become something you couldn’t handle if you left it

It’ll be too late

Well you did it

You got what you asked for.

I’m writing it every day and you live your life while leaving me in silence and pain and sadness.

That’s something you can take responsibility for I don’t have to

You had the chance and the choice and the opportunity and the

IT’S NOT A FUCKING LOVE STORY

Aphrodite agrees.

Fuck Taylor Swift and her lies about love and her bullshit references to some story that fucking sucks

Have you ever read that play?

It’s god fucking awful

Sorry not sorry Shakespeare

You’re welcome

I don’t think I can count on him

I knew he’d be like this but this?

Disappointed is not the word I want to use.

Bach is fine.

Beethoven too.

I reject your reality though.

You’re wrong.

You have me wrong.

And you don’t deserve me.

Eventually

I start to send out shooters

She was so cute her face got so red I can’t believe she doesn’t know she’s beautiful

And she’s so pretty but she accepted it like a fact

Probably because it was a fact.

Distances closing while creating distance

I found a strange medium

Where I read everything

But I don’t shut my mouth

But even when I’m talking

I’m watching wide eyed at every reaction

I know who doesn’t like me and why

And then I tell them

But they don’t know that who I choose to portray for them part of the play part of the character part of the

They say I’m so cool, strong, and popular, but I’m not really like that.

They don’t I’m quoting respectfully

It’d be best if I could be myself

But I can collect more humans if I just dull out the person and keep the

I forgot this existed.

Thanks for the reminder you two.

The adults don’t know

I refused to grow old

I just said everything he wanted to say anyways

That means he can say it now

I open doors

Today the music is too tight

Today the music is constraining

I can’t fit in the simple emotions of it

Just too complex

I can do it too

I do

The lady of love swaying in the breeze

Time stops to say hello

Contained like a reminder

Tick tock

I know they’re out there

Because they reply with careful voices

Living forever is too much

It’s difficult

They want to die too

I wonder if there are creatures in the dark

They say I’m fine

They’re dangerous but I’m fine

Struggling against the fates

The one things they can’t beat

I don’t think I’m important though

If only the creepy old man who demands affection unaffected

Could hear their screams.

They’re alive but they don’t know it

Without knowing it they are programmed

Life must be sustained

But why does life have to be sustained?

If if could live like a tree

And take only the light and water that is given to me

They’re alive

But they don’t consume the same way no destruction in their living they give back

Why doesn’t other life give back?

Why does other life take so much?

Even though life has no meaning

Even though life has no reason to exist

Can you imagine a universe filled with planets just filled with green things

No things taking

All things returning the love shown to the planet they grow from

No disgusting life to kill other life and consume everything greedily without returning even a blessing of air

We breathe it and gulp it and return what kills her

There was a time when I saw things that couldn’t be seen

There was a time I did things that couldn’t be done

There was a place I went, places no one could get to

But you didn’t come

But you didn’t come

I ran a thousand miles to get here

And a thousand miles between

And in all those spaces I was sure that I was the kueen to your qing.

When all the lines are borrowed and all the words replay

Another place a different time a day other than today

Patiently waiting and weathering the storm wondering if you’d ever be home

But you’re away

But you’re away

I ran a thousand miles to get here

And a thousand in between

Losing faces falling graces empress emperor reversing

The language too constricting the tightness in my throat

I wished until it was horse and I couldn’t scream it out

I held on so tightly strung together with my doubt

But you’re not

But I’m not

We’re not okay