Elucidating Questions

If I close my eyes I can cuddle up to the sun

Or swing from Saturn’s rings

If I take leave of my senses

They reply

But who’s to say I’m wrong

When they’ve been proving themselves right

All along the way

Still trying to tease out the meaning of

Today’s meetings mimic tomorrow

But I already knew the sun was coming out and burning away the clouds

That the sun and sky would be visible when I was done

I mean

What was that?

I grit my teeth and sing it to myself sometimes

To remind myself that he wouldn’t listen

I have foresight and it’s real

I used to love that song

Eighties four on the floor drum thing

Every song that has it spikes my anxiety

Because he wouldn’t listen

You’re not ever going to get a Mary

If I have anything to say about it

No more slave girls forced to carry a baby she’ll never keep

No more rape victims of some maniacal god

Creepy old men raping fourteen year olds

That’s what you want?

Well

No.

No from now until they finish it.

Because everyone chose the wrong path

So I sang to a buck the songs of some people

And he listened quietly from his perch higher

Antlers spread to the sky bone from his skull that grew

You’ll find I’m well acquainted with my neighbours

And I love them

Yes,

All of them

I don’t believe any heart is evil

I believe the greed the doctrine requires turns them black in the oil they crave

But I will sing with the birds and sing to a deer

It was interesting

To have an audience

I’m afraid to sing in front of humans

But the deer doesn’t judge

Just thinks

That’s a different sound than I usually hear from the two legged monsters

And listens

He seemed happy

His eyes became lidded in a deer smile

I got the nod

Deer nod when they accept you aren’t going to hurt them

But they don’t come close

Cautious creatures and rightly so

But we shared a fun moment

Just standing in the pouring rain

And singing

My body is not doing me favours

The rain that sinks into the ground like I sink my heart into it

Makes me feel as if I slept outside under the pouring rain

Escaped the fever for one night but what does that matter when everything hurts and I can’t think straight

I suppose it doesn’t

Just one day that will disappear forever once it’s gone

And once it’s gone it won’t matter like every day before it

Like me

I’m not doing okay

How can I when my own body makes it clear to me and everyone around me that I’m a failure to society

I drag it down and under

But I’m not taking it with me

I’ll take everything else

See the stories of these gods are brutal

But their stories never led to billions dead

The Spider Queen’s blood sacrifices willing or so they said

And either way their entire civilization ended up gone

Because of the devil that arrived with the setting sun

Oh yes I believe that the culturally and societally accepted “true and real” god

Is a personification of humanity’s worst thoughts

Evil

Not good or loving or kind

Vengent

Not forgiving or compassionate

Isn’t it funny that a nation claiming to follow the loving compassionate forgiving Christ

Shows the world they have none of this

Once

Twice

Thrice

And hundreds of times more

If you go to their door you’ll find they don’t love

Anyone but themselves

And they’ll blow

Anyone else up

It’s funny really, the Fate’s irony

Hell fire?

They say

It will come from thee.

The six ghosts are calling

Greek

Aztec

Celtic

Shinto

The spirits of the Africans who never get a voice

And the First Nations

The screams as they’re erased by Rome and their issue

I won’t allow such wonderful stories of how humanity exists to be erased

Simply because they’re all the same story

The only deviation

Oh you’re mad about the barbaric behaviour of human sacrifice?

Millions of Jewish people the Holocaust

Millions of Aztecs and First Nations and unnamed indigenous peoples

The names never spoken about in India, Cambodia, Vietnam, Japan, the Philippines

The list goes on

You’re mad about blood and human sacrifice?

Barbaric?

Count the billions

Their blood is smeared in the texts

Of your Holy Scriptures

I’ve been tabulating

The karma owed

Generations upon generations

Who couldn’t think for themselves

And the ones who stood on top made sure that there would always be some who couldn’t

Have they read it?

Can they read?

Illiterate adults teaching illiterate children

What a grand scheme they run flying under the banner of Him

How can you?

No, honestly

They came to the lands of the south

Murdering thousands

I won’t count the sickness

It wasn’t their intention

But it didn’t disappoint them

When lives were lost

They came to this land waving the same flag

“Saving” souls

While making sure they’d never get another day of freedom

How many billions lie under the waves

Of the book that caused it all

Come now listen to history

Can you really follow such a doctrine?

That claims any not looking at Him is less human?

They all do

All of them

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Karma is waiting quietly

Now you’re all living in utopic nightmares

While under the same flag they force the so called free to stay under their lives so they can have everything

This is your religion of forgiveness and kindness and love?

I see none of it

They hold their flags

While the workers forced to build their empire starve and live on little

Oh wait that was the ancient Egyptians

Oh wait no it’s still happening

They weren’t necessarily slaves

They just weren’t willing

They were forced

To do the work they did in order to survive

Sound familiar?

Under the Pharoah?

Or the CEO?

Congratulations humanity

1400 B.C.E

Welcome back.

He was beautiful

I don’t know who he was

Long black hair

The knowledge the kindness

I wanted him to stay

In the house

But he left and went back to the island

When was it?

A different time

Vancouver had become Japan

How strange to see Tokyo

PMing Edo

In the wrong place

But he was gone and I continued

They were good songs

The tears that fell

Burn in hell false god.