Elucidating Questions

There’s too many thoughts under the glass when I look at him

Carefully anecdoted.

The glass keeps me safe from their volume and volume and volume.

Oh English

大きさ、音量、重さ。

Couldn’t think of how they connected

Perhaps unheard

If you can’t do it don’t sell it like you can

But that’s what rises because

It’s light and meaningless

Don’t listen to the grey it only pops when it can’t find us

Is the glass the frozen lip of the lid of the waters of my

Encompassing well of unheard wishes and whispers

Why does wishes not have an H?

It’s German.

So it’s vishes bitches.

I wish I could fix him by listening and being beside him and thinking about him and hoping his day has been making him feel better

I’m scared of everything

But I’ve never been bit by an animal and had no understanding as to why

You’re no monster

Just as the eye cannot be the most beautiful thing in this space

Why is it Dragons or Hedley?

It’s all just a dream

Now was I more angry about that or the name

Come on it’s not nice to call people names and not give me twenty minutes to argue about why you’re wrong

That bush has been blooming since

I don’t remember

At least I don’t remember

Whoever breaks the twenty second day of silence I would give my everything to

Just one more day of long-distance short-distance relationships lived entirely disconnected from everyone

If you’d wonder why for me I wouldn’t mind I can’t wonder anymore

I can’t imagine

I can’t

I wonder what being an object of affection feels like

I wonder what being wanted feels like

I wonder what love feels like

I don’t know what it is

That’s what they kept saying

I was too young to know what love is

And now I’m too old to be loved

One would be mine but I’ve never met someone who was jealous over me

Met

I don’t understand why it doesn’t reach don’t know why

You lied about what?

Meaningless drivel I’m sure

Oh you why are you

You

He doesn’t even have a name

We should name him

I had a dream that Donald Trump’s name was

Joshua Trump

I got so mad

Well what could that possibly mean

No I mean I was awake all at once and yelling at my own dream

Can’t even get along when we sleep

So I’ll wear his slippers and lie on the couch and try to come up with a name for

You

And what’s in a name

That the name of anyone could be used to describe themselves

But was it premonition or

Conditioning?

The rose would be a rose regardless but if you were called and treated as the name

The rose still smells sweet until you smell it and realise roses don’t really have that strong of a scent

William is actually my favourite name

Let’s call him Willis

You know,

The dumb fucker who broke everything to try to save his best friend

Far better now than the dumb fucker who broke everything to be a dead rich white boy.

Well I don’t know any other cool W names.

Because W is a vowel.

No, baby, where do you think you’re going?

I should try Hamlet?

Rich white boy leads a life of struggling as a rich white boy?

Burning it the fuck down because I am missing

98% of the puzzle

Acting like they never happened and like they were nothing.

I miss you so so bad

Chester

Taking up all my time missing you because it’s easier to miss what you absolutely cannot have

Take my heart and tell my soul that there’s not much inside and it’s broken but it never shuts up

I could try to find the distortion on my own

But that would require

It’s never a good time

And I’m afraid

Not of the future we exist in it I’m afraid of the existing of the future

I hope everyone else but me is here

Twenty seconds more cross your fingers for no more calling

Nope there it is

I’d trade my soul for a wish

But they won’t take it

And the past comes back to life the selfish pain

That doesn’t watch quietly

Oh thank god she doesn’t exist yet

Twenty thirteen

So simple before and complicated after

I hated that song until I heard the lyrics

The moment

When it’s the same moon phase and the girl’s name will haunt me all over again

It’s just such a common name why did you do this to me?

Did I kick him?

Shame on me I got into a fight with The

Dreams are places I’m supposed to go rest and save the world

Unlike here caught in the monotony

He’s not welcome

He is, after all, a

I’m sorry this may hurt

He’s just not as good of a person as me

In my eyes

So I’m better than one person anyways

He’s not fit to grace the hallowed halls of my night life.

I’ll kill him next time.

He deserves to die more than me.

Please don’t tell the story of the pixie

It’s not in keeping with the times before the faeries found a better home

I’m sorry I used science to explain why your dead bride wasn’t decomposed

Sorry your dead bride is dead

But that doesn’t make much difference

After all we are all in one way or another

One embodiment of life and death

Do you think it happened not yesterday but tomorrow

When I looked up at the moon

And asked for a different story

Capella or perhaps

Polaris probably thinking about places and things

But

上手く

Perhaps was the wrong word to be used something more specific can’t be asking genies for wishes unspecifically

Haggard

Oh ouch

That hurt

That was like

I wasn’t even thinking of him and then

I’m

Not him my mind needs to learn when

Why though

Does he have something to say does he need something I can’t provide anything so him needing something can’t be and

Invasive is an understatement

Don’t whisper apologies I want everything that’s connected to be disconnected

It’d be so much easier

Why don’t things ever work out right?

Not one thing

Not one thing has ever gone right

It’s always gone slightly sideways or something

Somewhere it wasn’t supposed to

Everything I touch turns to

Not quite right

Or outright failure

How can I get hope when I don’t even have a hope

What a joke

And you froze me in the cold to say

What?

It’s real cold too bad it won’t snow?

Things that I want get wrapped up in the things I can see and they get muddied because

I just wanted it to snow.

If it’s going to be this cold it should snow

At least I’d have someone to play with

At least I’d have someone to play with

If only things went right

And I didn’t end up alone every night

And I didn’t have to hear anyone say

I’m coming

When they never came

Damn regret

It’s the whispers every day

Something is coming

But there wasn’t

But there was

And there wasn’t anymore of this

This standing waiting for nothing

Pain

Every time for nothing

Why is this my destiny?

If I did this to someone

I must deserve this.

I’m so lonely

I wish I didn’t want to change the world

That I could just leave it as is instead of looking at it and

Staying awake worrying about strangers in places I never will never be in.

I wish that someone would come along and make it so that all of this could just go away

I wish I could forget you

I wish I didn’t have to wake up every morning

And check my phone to see if I still don’t exist

I still don’t exist

I wish I had one reason to love myself

I wish that reason was you

I wish you’d come before I was in too deep over my head overwhelmed

I can’t believe until you’re here and if I know these

Assholes and their secret rules and their catch twenty-twos

And their

It’s a rule like I have to love myself before I get to love you or see you or feel you or know you

Of you

I don’t even know of you

I was so wrong

I was so wrong again and again

I just wanted something to be right

Even a broken clock

For sure for sure

But it’s not right either is it?

I don’t want to change the world the world scares me

People scare me

But

How will you ever know me if I’m invisible

And how will I ever know you if I don’t have a reason to love myself?

I’m so tired of these rules and these games and these promises

Truth or dare?

Did you ever even think that it was going to work?

You’re going to have to be more specific

Did you really fucking think that all of these things that have happened that keep pushing me and pushing me

Were really going to work when the pushed is invisible and nothing

Sometimes I think

Apollo loved me and you got jealous so you started

No

Fallout fallout fallout

I don’t get it

I feel like the most useless and unnecessary guardian ever to exist

So you want me to stand here and watch them?

I don’t understand

What have we determined

There’s more than one

They’re less uncommon than previously believed

This world kills them these days before they reach their full potential

In this world they kill themselves these days

Echo Echo Echo

Irony

He folds like a bad hand and mutters with his head in both of them

Why would they want to live though?

What good are they?

Stop looking at me like I should know the answers because you’ve proven nothing and I want you to stay away from all of them

So tell me now did you even think it would work?

What good am I alive?

Strung up waiting for the day I die.