Elucidating Questions

Nightmares are where you mind goes to ensure the daymare never ends.

Nightmares are where you’ve never been on a double-decker bus that fell over, but your mind creates it anyways.

Where you held your breath on the bus the day before because “one breath leads to another yeah”,

So the bus tries to kill you in your sleep.

Only to be disappointed when you wake, and try to get back to sleep.

Nightmares are where he’s with her everywhere and I already know so I don’t need to be told I didn’t need to be reminded

Nightmares are where the wolf goes to show me what it could be like

And then announce he has a girlfriend

Nightmares are where the fears of the day play out

But don’t give you anything in return

They say you have to give to take so I give every ounce of myself every single day but the nightmares still come

Where you search all night for someone to hold on to because the day was empty

And your mind cannot even fathom such a thing

You wake up thinking

I just needed a hug

I want to go back to sleep

Because you know you won’t find anyone

In the empty continuing day.

にしても来た

Invincible

Because I’m standing on the side of the road crying

Because nothing else fit

I’m beyond thinking I deserve the warmth that it creates

Kieran already said he doesn’t want to talk to me

So the music isn’t allowed either

Earlier Krwling followed by Crawling followed by

If you can’t hang

And it was rude so I changed it.

Which is when the translation lost me.

Inside a dream I can’t escape from

Hollow and alone

The fault must be my own

Dreaming’s for sleeping

Unintended meaning mentioned in silence

Every time I see someone I wonder how many tens of days it’ll be before I’m allowed to see someone else

Because they take everything away from me

I sang a few songs for the setting sun but that’s not something only I do

Perhaps I am a bird.

Because every time it doesn’t work out I feel like I did something wrong and I’m being punished for it

Without enough self worth to fight it I sink

I got rid of my self defense

And forgot what it was.

I know it’s not meant to be but I’m sitting here trying to rationalise why

Can’t I just pretend for a little while?

Can’t I just…

I know well enough that it’s wrong and the Fates and their fucking fingers are sewing the same tale

But if they could fuck off for a few fucking seconds

Maybe I’ll play guitar until everything is alright

But it’s never all right

Only parts of it can come to light

Even so I just want someone to play with is that so fucking hard for you three to get through your thick fucking souls?

Alone where nowhere goes.

Always alone.

Always nothing.

I’m lonely

Please fix it please

I keep trying and these three fucking bitches with their fucking strings keep pulling and making it impossible

Simple fucking shit I can’t even tell if I’m being fucked with by a human being or by these fuckers and their fuckery.

If only I had someone to talk to. With.

Could I please just…

I don’t want to be alone anymore.

What is your daddy do…

This is like laying instead of lying

Would you lay with me

Only if that’s what you meant

Otherwise that’s far to forward to be asking in a hit

Grammar checking is useless when poetry is literally

Oh no

What you’ve got me saying is worse that what I want to say because perhaps when I’m annoyed I get

So unnecessarily critical

However it fell that way don’t

Don’t question it

Miniscule issues with nothing

Every one but seven.

I don’t want them to go away.

But for what reason would anyone want to stay in this?

I wonder where we fell out of line.

望む者

物

幸せ

って複雑で意味のない言葉

望むけど、なぜ

熱の間に苦しみしか分からない場所

何もに頼んで

許して、お出で行かないで、

Set me free.

永遠の闇に朝が来ない間

光が闇になるのは逆

闇は光を褪せる

夜明けの焼けるの中に。

日焼けに

夜を消す。

雨の日々で雪が来ないまま

大鳥が羽ばたける

誰も見えない風の上

君が言った

見えなくっても

いる可能性がある。

風の用に。

上手く言えないけど

愛してるよ

見えない青い光へ

言葉が消えるぐらい痛みを感じてて

なぜ愛されなきゃいけない見たいに

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