Elucidating Questions

We don’t need to damage both parties

Why we shan’t leave but an imperceptible trace

An imperceptible trace of the damage

The way the outside is lighter by the snow on the ground and the trees, the fences and houses.

Why do houses not have to take the imperceptible determiner the

Fences, trees, the same.

Without

Snow on ground

Suddenly sentences make far less sense

Simply, they must be reworked to work around any problems leaving it out may cause.

It needs the.

I need thee

Such silliness to try to overlook what aches within without

Yet I stand gazing feverish out the window why am I awake when I am asleep

Wondering wandering we find nothing waiting here in the dark

Staring out into white wonderousness.

Double suffixes are uncredibly incomfortable

A prefix is a nice name for most people don’t get the joke

So

I’m the joke

I’m the joke because I’m standing here a year later still hung up on two guys I’ll never have and neither of them

Nor any one else

Has expressed even remote interest in me

I could not possibly

Possibly

Be funnier to watch

The older British man said

That’s quite sad

And in the moment I swallowed the punch to the gut because if it’s sad

Someone’s laughing

They must be

The moonlight in the snow was a nice touch to a day spent worrying around being stranded

And it’s so funny because I just so happen

To be trapped on an island on an island and, deep under water we wonder who could possibly

Probably

I always end up isolated

And doesn’t anyone but me remember

What I used to fear most when locked away in my room

For whatever time out was for

I want to build a snowman

But not every Snow Queen has a sister to knock on the door

But my goodness Winter, my dear, you have outdone yourself

I don’t know where spring is

It’s beautiful, beautiful

Thank you for making it out this far

Perhaps you are a star

Perhaps you grace the skies of others and they love you they see you from so far

They look right at you but don’t see exactly what you are

Perhaps you are a star

Those closest can’t see you if they look too closely it burns

But you light their days

Perhaps you are a star

So you collect this protective shield around you dust and fragments

Just dust and fragments

Perhaps you are a star

Because you are so warm, but space is so cold

And no one comes close enough to keep you warm back

Perhaps you are a star to burn any that comes close enough to try regardless without knowing it’s just your nature

Perhaps you are a star

Perhaps you are.

I continue to wait out the end of the day

As it fades away into the next one

My last solid memory

Of being told to go away

It’s all I have it’s the last thing I heard someone say

Is it only a joke?

This loneliness

Do you laugh at me?

Mock me as I watch people

They so often travel in groups

What is it like?

Having a companion?

A friend

Someone who includes you in their social life

What

What is a social life?

The ground is stained white I am already mourning it

I wish it could stay,

But I know

But I know

She will be gone and I will be alone again

I don’t want to survive I want to live

I want to live not get by

I want to feel alive

But most days I don’t

I move from place to place

Places where past me promised others I would be

And then I return home

Please don’t make me tell you what happens at home

She rushes up to greet me

Look

And

Look!

About and around pieces falling down

So silent it falls so beautiful as it lands

I know

I whisper back barely contained glee in three short notes

This is how I wish it looked for months

The subtle addition of one layer to show the world in a different light

Something new to stay on my lashes and smile as I smile

It’s been better for whatever reason

I’m still lonely

There’s not much I can do about that

But with this visitor

With this visitor I see so rarely where I am

I wish I could remember her so clearly in the summer

Trees gilded with snow

Disowned ; Abandoned

To leave it lying in the shone sun on the fallen snow or to throw, buried among the places it lands on, left behind, or to be seen and then forgotten until time does claim that which it is made with, that which it is.

Lost ; Adrift

Whence out of the being seen being known is all but disappeared, there is no way to find it. Does it float on the lofty tides and winds? Dropped and carried as a being does travel, moved, without knowledge of having ever been. Out of sight, without a place, a name, a meaning.

Invisible ; Gone

And just when it was sure to be true it was disappeared into the nothing, as it all will be, but somewhere there could have, should have, never was a place to turn to, somewhere there but not. Some thing in some place, left and lost will soon be gone.

It will soon be gone.

Lost,

And abandoned.

I suppose you can’t hear that

The roaring sound

But the metallic quality of it

I’m sure you can’t hear it

But the world is suddenly underwater

And I can hear them like ringing forks

It disappears as silently as loudly as it came

All in a rush

And away with a whisper