Elucidating Questions

When I try to forget you

You name appears spelled out

When I try to pull away I’m filled with regret and doubt

There is nothing beyond here that I can see

Not what would bring you back

If there was one

Can you even consider it back when there wasn’t one to start with

How it feels to have someone whispering in your ears always

I wish I could fix him

It is as simple as the snow melting off the ground

The snowflake that fell

It is gone

The next winter will not bring the same one

Nor the same snow

Nor the same story

But it will fall and be perceived as

Just another snowfall

And as we fall into life and lie on this earth and we wait for the day we melt away

It will never be the same but will never be perceived as different

Just another life ended

But that is how it is

The stories may say your name and you may be remembered

It was a cold day in the capital regional district today, as ten centimeters of snow fell

But in the end the world will continue as if you were never here

Isn’t that odd

That everything mirrors everything else

We just so happen to be also alive

But the criteria are not all right

But who could care?

The snow is melting

I still have no where to go

I liked it better when I couldn’t go,

Because it meant I wasn’t missing anything.

Hello?

I called out to the stars

Through a vague opening in the skies

Flowing by

And it was there just in time

Hello

Good night

I love you

And gone again into the cloudy night

And would a silent whisper of a yell to a star reach its horizons

Or get lost years in between

You’d have to shoot forward to get behind

Like a drop on my cheek that was a snowflake, but no longer

Does the heart grow fonder?

It won’t matter now in the quiet.

It will be like a stiff whisper

You won’t forget it but you dodge the hit and stay down

Just trying to stay out of the memories

Like everything is just now

Just only this

However how unfortunate today was today

The today that it was wasn’t bad

I may never be

But I know that all I wanted was

Not mine to take

That intrusion unexpected unwanted unnecessary

Couldn’t possibly have been positive

I suppose my life is just going

At least I get to see dogs every day

Through the wind I hear a baby’s cry

Oh my baby

I’m trying

Not quite right

Quite wrong indeed

Going away sometimes means never coming back

Or so they say

I wish every silence would stay

To keep me company

To try to put me back together

They say you never know

I know I know

Nothing known at all

So little known at all

So seldom I am me

So little to see

So little to be

Don’t know when I’ll really be again

This is for now I keep whispering

Not bothering with what comes after

I don’t know when now ends

But this is for now

To the Valentine’s without Valentine’s

The days that never go right

The best gift of the day the dusting proceeding the slow thaw

So short lived, so beautiful, my beautiful white Valentine

Much quicker and easier without the hit

I’ll take it I took it

Is there some one out on this god forsaken rock who can understand me?

Who can understand that

It’s just one stupid day where people for some reason get one day to somehow make the rest of the shitty year go away and trick their other into staying another year

Is translation for

I’ve never been surprised on Valentine’s Day

I don’t have a Valentine

I’ve never been there done that

None of it

Someone who can read a cynic and see how disappointed I am

Is this not how a dog lives?

Inside perpetually doing nothing

Outside sometimes

Still doing mostly nothing

It’s all nothing really

It’s so much easier to see it as nothing

Than face what I’m missing

And what I’m leaving behind

I think it’s beautiful

The way it’s falling so gently

Even when whipped around by the wind

She falls softly

Building up like a thick tower from the ground the foundation thousands of thousands of tiny individuals

I think she’s beautiful I would love to sit in the field and feel her growing around me

Watching her softly falling

Such grace

And yet she’s just weather

How odd to have a favourite

She is, she is,

Look at her

Safe at home in her arms