Elucidating Questions

It’s interesting that these things keep coming

Related stories

Related but not the same

Where they always have a team

A family of sorts

My life is the same but different

When the evil spirits

When the twin souls

When the stories come alive

When there’s nothing to live for

At least I can hide away in stories that aren’t about me

At least I can hide

How to come to terms with

Twin soul

And the broken pieces

We’ve been living like this forever

You asked me to take over

Do you remember?

Basically basically

I just wish I could get out

I know

I’m sorry

We aren’t done yet

ねー猫

“The cat”

If only there was a name for you

If only people would acknowledge my existence

We’re stuck like this aren’t we? Revolving doors and you coming in with fur flying and claws

It’s not your fault he makes me angry. You’re just too blind to see how wrong it all is.

If the roles were reversed would I run to his side?

If someone approached you and said all they needed was love in order to keep living would you ignore them for a year and then go on tour and have a great time while ignoring them all along?

I’d like to think I’d be a better person than that.

You wanted to believe he’s a better person than that.

I’m sure if I was prettier and better and more important he would have cared

Don’t fight me on this, he’s a monster who is reveling in the pain he causes women and profiting from it. He doesn’t have a

I wish he’d reacted like the pretty man in the show we’re watching

I’m sorry we’re going to spend today all alone worrying about things that we can’t control

I’m sorry he doesn’t love me

I’m sorry he’s a selfish prick.

Name calling.

He runs around the country absorbing the love that they offer him and glutting himself on their money and love for him. He’s a selfish fucking prick.

What a disaster

He’s off enjoying

And my rent money is gone

Poof

It just goes to show

It just goes to show that I’m always in the wrong

No matter what I do

And Icarus is hooting in my ear

That he’s not the only one who crashed into the sun

And lived to fight another day

It would be nice if he would fight

But I have more important things to do

Like crying about the desperation and impossibility of my situation

And there’s no one to answer

What am I going to do?

What am I going to do now?

There’s no one to sit with me as the night wears on and I don’t know what to do.

There’s no one here.

And he got to play all night and it just proves

I’m a monster

And I deserve this

And I wish I hadn’t given myself a reason to love because I want to die to badly

I just want to die

I don’t know what to do and I’m all alone and I can’t ask for help because I’m an adult and I should have myself figured out

I don’t know what to do

I’m all alone

And he’s safe and sound

And no matter what I do I’m drowning

And no one cares about me

Winter is a tall woman

Her face is shadowed by her cloak

She picks her way across the land

Her son Jack Frost dancing upon plants lakes roofs

She stands formidable

Her fingers are impossibly long

Yet in her chilling embrace

She warms the earth with her cloak

I am here

She whispers, to every frozen tree

Her breath like an icicle

Beautiful until it’s in your skin

Her sister enters dancing

Her petal-like dress flowing as she twirls

Her hands spread out as she dances,

Waking the sleeping with her song

She stands in a field green

She dances in a clearing

The snow at her feet dissipates

And tiny flowers grow at her toes

Long limbs and graceful movements

Her cautious sister nods as they pass

She pulls her cloak over her ears

And heads south

Goodbye sweet sister

Spring does sing

I will follow you

Watch as the vines grow up my knees

And the blooms begin to show

Take heed sweet sister our path so long

So long sweet sister

She is already gone

To usurp her brother

Who stands staring at the land

His gaze crumbling leaves

His grip silencing the summer

She goes to put him to sleep

Lady Winter whispers

Sleep now dear brother your time here is done

Rest for your restful, find the peace in the peace you have created

Her brother looks blankly as she approaches from the North

They died

He says

And I will sing them softly to their sleep, that their young may rise when our sister arrives at last

At last

She whispers

The moment the rain started falling

And the green began breathing again

Winter and her quiet goodbye

Spring edging into life

The blossoms growing cautious

Having sprung once too soon

The young green things dancing in their favourite weather

She’s here she’s here!

Spring! She’s here!

Her brother stands off in the far away

When he’ll arrive as a thick breath is unknown

The blooms tremble

Is it time?

As the drops whisper that Lady Winter has departed

And her sister enters softly as the snow that melts

The rain falling gently

She dances on her toes

Stand so quietly in the entrance

Shoot the light into the darkness

As if I could bring up a promise

When my own nervousness got in the way

The wish held fast in the back of my throat

I’d introduce you to my family

Surely it would go well

Anytime always us

Anytime I will be near you

I want to find that light called you

In the middle of the night

Anytime always us

Anytime I will be near you

I want to find the light called you

In the middle of the night

It’s so loud

When you turn my way

In this busy street

Destiny

Take it all the way

Take the mask

Thinking of the future too much

Stop doing meaningless things

For today

Let’s just eat delicious food

The future? That’s farther down

Even I don’t know what comes

Don’t make it a perfect end

Just go on well

One scene at a time

We could go on living well

Because the light that is you would reflect my scenario

Let’s talk more than we have

About the uncertain tomorrow as well

Turn off the t.v.

And just set your eyes upon only me

When it seems all is well

I can’t quite believe it

Even at that time

I’ll be beside you

When I find the light that is you

In the middle of the night

Let’s talk more than we have been

About the uncertainty of tomorrow as well

Turn of the t.v.

And set your eyes only upon me

(光:宇多田ヒカル)