Elucidating Questions

I saw the new departure

Stuck inside a hole waiting patiently to be let out

But the warrior grizzled and powerful stands outside

Why do you hate me?

Understandably misunderstood

As the bard sings her crow song fluttering through her lute

As the mage gathers power only for the better and to disperse

The bear comes over the hill

Never forgetting that the path is clearer in groups

And that under every dark king’s helmet is a scared and hurt little boy

Where was ones?

Where’s the top?

Much easier said

I thought so many things you don’t need to see

And I wish I’d had the chance to touch your face

Meeting in the dark

With these things I shouldn’t have started

No one cares about the rhythm of my heart

So this falls sharply silently

Fantasies are only for breaking and I’ll never be

Real

And after you there’s nothing there’s only

This emptiness

I couldn’t

I couldn’t

I couldn’t

Do those things I wanted to start

There’s only one slave

And no one gives a fuck about my heart

I still wish I hadn’t failed all those times I tried to kill myself and not leaving you means absolutely fucking nothing so

Here I am in the dark all alone waiting for no one to show as the night goes on and there’s nothing left

I fucked up the rhythm

Oops

Oh oh I don’t give a fuck.

I know.

But don’t spill your guts you

Could not spill your guts out

I hope you know you don’t deserve it that you’re more than half a man

When you’re feeling alien and outside and can’t feel alive

And I know you do

Because I do too

It’s a slipping silent

Creeping quiet

You should know you’re more than you think you are

The baby of the melody

Even here

So what are you?

Preciously tragically human

I think your hopes were set too high I’d give you a bandaid if I could

I wish I knew how to make all these days go by without the alibis

You’re more than you could think to be

Nothing is perfect

But at least it doesn’t kill you

Hollow promises for perfection

I wish I could see all the expressions you pretend with

Without wanting to notice that as you have less pounds you have less to sell

At least it doesn’t kill you

And you have shirts sometimes now

Nothing is better

Everything is the same

Nothing is better

It wasn’t perfect to begin with

So good luck

What I want what I need

Isn’t killing you

Devorce for less

It wasn’t perfect to start

In those ways you’ll never know

The sound of you bringing a silly smile to my face unbidden

How there were moments I’d run to you and cry

Sob into the sounds of you aching

How your tender voice would slip into my pain and lead me out again

Down and then out

Like a hand offered when the room was empty

When it goes hollow and stops sounding real

Empty songs

Whispers in the dark

I wish I could have saved you

I wish you could have saved me

The clouds here are white, grey, and puffy.

What did they look like there?

Did the bird I just heard light on the tree and sing his song?

Were there trees?

I wonder where it was there

I can point you a trail there I was

But I can’t explain

This was night left sitting in the park for hours just incase just incase

Somehow

This was hours asking endless questions as a bird peeping for the first time

This was excruciating

This was without a cut in the ache

Just calmly they whispered

Don’t get lost in nostalgia

No world is without its pains

So there is a temporary home in this planet

But just as a rented apartment

I want to leave it in a condition that the next tenant can live here as well.