Elucidating Questions

Repeating repeating

繰り返し繰り返し

As the ocean’s name left my lips

海の名前を言う瞬間

Gazing up from the screen

画面から見切れた時

And her waves swept in

その海の波が流動した

That deja vu

その既視感

And we call out to each other

お互い呼び出す

Just once more, once more.

もう一度だけ、もう一度

It’s piling up

The things

When people come in and the topic of

Family

Happens

The funny thing is

I wish we’d never met

Do you think that sounds harsh?

It would have been better if I had never met her

It wouldn’t matter to her after all she’s gone

Poof

19 years

Poof

Just like that, every story I told about how much I loved them

Just hurts

Just hurts

It just hurts

Perhaps I should be content in the ache

At least they aren’t hurting

But you know what?

The cat was always the voice who told me to stay away from her

He was right

I wish I hadn’t met her

The funny thing is up until the day I started Brownies I had a pretty okay life

If I could change one thing in my life

I’d stop me

Because it hurts

And I’m selfish

Dear you

Dear you

Dear you

You are the best I’ve ever had twenty five years ago I loved you

I hope that in twenty five years I get to hear what you had to say about it

Dear bear

Dear bear

Dear bear

You’re a damn good uncle of the night

Like a light

To chase away the nightmares

Sirius A and B

Sirius’ most loving God child

No object permanence but I love you

My ears are still ringing

Ring

Ring

Ring

Here there be there in spirit

Revival of your weapons system.

Sarcasm doesn’t live where it can’t be heard.

No then you want more.

No more.

Stop telling me to give love when I give everything I get and more.

How frustrating to be told that everything isn’t enough

Trying to breathe through it doesn’t lift me up

I don’t get to where I need to be they’re blocking me

But let’s continue daringly

And continue believing

And continue from the difference of yesterday

Wondering when you get to feel again

Unlike this swirling broken

Just like

Excuse me it’s not uneccessary

It’s just a verse

But it jumped out

And who knows why

Fun

And how to have it

Without shit getting in the way

You know

There’s something wrong with watching a person that can’t see you back

Feels so off

That’s why I want to meet them but

Isn’t it odd that even though I

Even though he was farther away it’s the closest I came to him

The veil of the stage torn down

疲れった?けんか?

何月も一緒にいるのは大変だね?

I wanted to meet you Taka

It was the same thing over again

Watching you pull away in your car

Oh fuck it hurts the same as before

God it hurts

But it was a damn good night

Good concert

Poor Pink baby barely containing his doubt

Siren song flowing into the ears of those who can relate

For the reason I haven’t lived life o can’t

Watching you go

Watching him go watching you go watching

I failed

I can’t let it turn sour but

Why does delivering messages cost money?

It’s so odd when you know them

When you’ve come to understand them

Whispering voices slipping past like the ocean of swirling in the universe

So many too many

But

Could you guys keep it down in there I’m trying to make dinner

When you know what they are

When you know your madness

When you start talking back