Elucidating Questions

How am I going to sort through this one?

Jealousy

Vicious instantly

Staying out all night

And saying “sorry” ’till it’s sun down

How am I going to

See now I just know I know you know

And you probably know I know you know so

You know

Why?

Very very sorry

I ever thought I was good enough for you

How could you do this to me?

I don’t care about the actions of inaction there is an action in no action if there was not your actions taken while taking no action would cease to exist

You’re a fucking

You’re such

I’m so angry at you

Why did you do this to me?

I had a dream

I had a dream about

I dreamt

Oh for the love of God

I remember enjoying it

Despite the danger

Scaling rooftops happened

Long conversation with

Best Friend™

Talking with

Lover™

Like everything was okay

Just being people

Even though we were running away from

Bad Guy™

It’s always a nice house

Wee bit of escaping

Daddy™

Wee bit of flying to where I believed

Conversations about nothing

The kinds you don’t remember

The mutual acceptance that most of your time together will be forgotten

Oh dear

Dear brain

I wish they were people I was meeting in my dream world who were real and I could find them

Meet me in the dark

That’s where I’ll be

I’m hungry

But I can’t afford it

What if there’s money?

He whispered.

I looked.

And there was.

A look passed between us which has passed many times before

Not a

Did you see that

But a

We’re talking again

And we don’t know where that takes us, any time. Merely wondering uncertain, until one of us whispers

My only hope, that you only live once

That this isn’t one of many more

I plead with anything, just not one more

To even think of any more of this even one more

Every day like it is

My psychic mind is tired

My body can’t handle the strain

The silence falls so heavily

In the cold rain

But the drops aren’t filled with sadness

Until a sad air comes in

Standing in the doorway

Trying not to hear the pain

Left within the darkness

Lying in the coffin

With no wish for another day

Are you kidding me?

What is this a symptom of?

The system?

How awful!

How utterly awful

Am I a cow?

What sick mockery is this of one who has no one?

Another strange tick on the

Weird shit

List?

Depressing depressed

How much more damaged could you make me before you finally let me be free?

They’ve always been out of my hands

Out of my hands

Fate kept them out of my hands

But now it’s there just beyond just beyond my fingertips

What if it gives me the feelings I’ve never had or it makes me feel loved empty afterwards

But a moment

But now I have a question for ever after and masterpiece theatre

And it’s how much was he using?

Facial bloating noted