Elucidating Questions

I told you I was addicted to all the drugs

You told me you were Japanese

Only because I knew you wouldn’t love anyone else.

I don’t think anyone understands how little I care about my well being

Well he should

We showed him

He doesn’t care

Ding dong

No one’s home

To drugs

Twitter is a dangerous place

I tried unfollowing you but your fame follows me

Hey did you see someone liked Joshua Ramsay’s post?

No matter what I do.

Twitter has become a dangerous place

Because I still love you

Like a fool I catch myself in thought of the after the first meeting or the first meeting and then I realise

You don’t want me

The crushing blow that finished off the hope

Oh how it fades away

Oh how cute you’re in love with a celebrity and surprised he doesn’t want you

But it hurts

But it hurts like

The only thing in the whole world I wanted was to meet you

Just meet you

Just look you in the eyes and be equal because there’s something wrong with it…

There’s something wrong with it…

I still wish

But it falls flat because there is no fight behind it

You won the war

You won the fight

And I know you’ll be

Alone tonight

Reveling in your pain so sweet you keep it tight to your chest unless there’s a sheet to scribble down

Nevermore nevermore

I love you Joshua Ramsay

The resounding silence from the day I first told you answered every question

And every answer was matched with a tear

The sorrow of

The silence of the answer.

You can’t be a gentleman

Because even ‘enry ‘iggins picked up that flaur from the street

And you could not be a gentleman, because even Daddy Warbucks made tomorrow today

You could not find a gentleman in you

When the gentleman kneels

For those below him

On the streets

Sitting on the floor clutching my otter and sobbing

Crying me sorrow in the fabric of my comfort animal

I’m crying because I’m alone

I’m crying because my family is gone

Then

I’m crying because he doesn’t love me

I’m crying because every day without him reminds me he’s not here

Like my family

Crying like a child the music plays on

That’s enough of that

He says I think me

He takes the music

And gently silences it

Then I am in the kitchen

Pacing and whispering and still more tears fall

There’s no handle in this safe

I go to check the mail which hasn’t arrived

I still say I’m okay

I’d still say I’m okay

That was a big earthquake

The world slipped away until all I had was

Crying

And

Pain

She was the only mother I ever knew

And that’s not a slight on my mother, that’s a slight on my mother many years ago

She’s wonderful

Being mad at a memory doesn’t mean you’re mad at the person now

My madness threw me on the floor

Crying into my otter while Hedley blasted away

And then another

And then it started to sting

My life eh?

Even the music

There’s so much I don’t…

Know.

But there’s never anyone to catch me

I started crying to Die Young

No

The Kesha one.

Self culture

It’s there isn’t it?

It sits underneath no one ever sees it

When something hurts it we keep it quiet

Do you ever wish if only they would see it?

So you wouldn’t ever keep it quiet

The one who misses her mum

The one who misses his mum

But we know we can’t go home

You let go

You abandoned us

We don’t know who to trust

There’s no way they’ll love us

There’s no way anyone won’t know

What this was from long ago

But somehow inside we both know

Exactly what happened