Elucidating Questions

The sky

Is red with its fire

As the sun casts dark shadows under the great pink and purple clouds

A calm night which could crack and throw the ocean into a storm

Now just sits as the sun waits as we turn in time

The clouds dyed red

The ocean dyed pink in their reflection if not for the darker

Deeper

Threads that cast through the open ocean

The darkness it promises should the clouds not hold up their fiery truce

As the ocean battles in silence against

Well, the ocean, sans salt, sans fish, sans life,

As it floats above the ocean, creating a darkness further away

But here it is just red

Just pink

Just purple

That is, until the first drop falls

And Pacifica throws her discomfort to the wind

And their ocean battles begin again

I don’t know why the shit always flies

It comes and goes like a shitty tide

Where one second it’s right and then it’s destroyed

How it comes up from nothing

A flash flood

And when there’s no air in the air and you feel like it’s at your throat

Drowning

Drowning

In shit

All I can do is sit by close

And know I’m drowning too, aren’t we all

So when the shit takes control and it’s just everywhere

Just everywhere

At the very least I can sit in it with you

When all we can do is wait

Until it pulls away again

And then wait its return

There is an owl off yonder

Just hoot hoo hooing

It doesn’t make a difference

Not a difference does it make in the state

That I’m in

This state of being where I’m not where I want to be today yesterday this week month year

I’m standing feet away from understanding what I’m left with after this

Rude grabbing and holding of things

There’s an owl out hunting and I, the human, am too busy thinking about my own problems

How very typical of me

No I insist

As a human

Wondering wandering to him leaving me

Wondering

How many times more will this happen before it’s over?

The wripple of time in which two lives are led

And only one story is relevant

When the things that happened to you

Don’t add up to their story

When your life is looked at by

The Boss

And The Boss decides

They just want it all to go away

They don’t want to know what happened

No matter the attack or the demons involved

During the punch in punch out

Punches thrown by strangers inbetween

All your hidden demons must rest silent

No one told them that

Well,

They don’t care.

But They don’t care either

Just be better

Just fix it

Suddenly all of your performance is written up

Has panic attacks

That’s one warning

Has a physical disability

That’s two

And now I’ve signed away my right to fight back

Because I wasn’t allowed to leave until I did

I’m going on a journey

Someplace

Who knows?

The mushrooms

You eat them?

I’m going on a journey

It’s coming up behind me right now

How long until I give up the fight?

Why do I fight them?

This is a set up

This is a set up before the set up

To the words that hurt

Burn like fire

The truth that hurts to hear

Lands

This is the reason I turn to the messenger with love

While I sigh and say

There really isn’t

Anyone here for me

Without turning to go

In between waiting

I miss him so I go

Watching the screen for something

My girlfriend

There was a pause

I thought

At least I’m so high I can’t feel it

This is the set up

Followed by sex which feels like

The emptiness is engulfing me

There is no one here

But you put them in my care

Now I can’t go anywhere

At least I can inhale ’till my lungs are sore.