Elucidating Questions

Trapped between thought and action

You tell lies like they drip from the skies

They slip past your lips as if that is what they miss

The truth is a mystery

What the true motivation is lost in dropped falsities.

Yet your eyes show a scared boy

And that boy I want to fold into my arms

Beautiful child

I love you

Beautiful boy

Don’t be afraid

Wonderful child

I will stay until you don’t need me anymore

That’s what I do

And it all goes

To the ocean

There no way

For devotion

Like how your silence heard

The commotion

I only had one shot

But I failed in the motion

And every time I called your name

Searching crowds to see your face

I screamed but was never heard

There is no voice in rhyme

This is the wrong swan

And it’s been so long

Proof I’m alive some

The empty words fall

Through open hearts all

They feel the words fall

And I know that I tried but what does that really mean?

Cause I don’t have another fight left in me.

You have to think it back

Think it back

To the point where everything fell down

And broke apart

There is nothing I can say to fix

Say to fix

All the pain that is hidden here

All the hurt that I always fear

Even if you run past the time still ticks on

It’s not as if I can turn off my self

I was just weak

I just wasn’t right

I only wanted to see

If there was anything good in me

But what I found was all you

And you never called back

So I follow the dark road

Seeking shelter and a hand to hold

I won’t look back

Never turning back

But the part that breaks my heart

Is how I wanted your love

It’s how I wanted your love

Sometimes I have to check if my heart’s still beating

There’s no one beside me to tell me I’m alive

I wander in my own existence

Frightened of the next time I feel my heart beating

Sometimes it’s a matter of seconds

Sometimes it goes on for days

This time spent only lonely

This time spend wasting away

The time that speeds forwards

And screams its ending comes

I don’t know where to go now

The darkness only speaks his name

I wish I could return

Return to whence I came

The cats are fighting outside

Howling and yowling

I can hear their claws in the cries

Get the fuck off my space you other cat how dare

It’s always times like these when I think of you and I wonder

How did I get your name so right?

From the beginning I called you cat (ネコ) and it suited you well but I never do get things right

It would be a name of all things

I hear them fighting

And I know that’s how you fight

Stand your ground

Ears back

Expression guarded

With claws concealed under the cloak

Sometimes I miss the way it used to be

Sometimes I wonder how it was ever so easy