Elucidating Questions

I’m just a worrier

A warrior

Of worrying

A champion?

Worry worry worry

Love is passing me by

It just passed by

Did you see it pass by

Passerby

As it does

There it goes I suppose it was wonderful while I worried while it lasted

Come and gone like the perfect storm

It’s just putting them there for the effect of the effect

Is it sarcasm or heartfelt

Who knows anymore

No one knows anymore

This means war?

This Means War?

As of course as soon as I think of him he exists times the times since the moment I came for

What

God Joshua your songs make me scream at ghosts

Never ever ever never

Imagine seeing I can see I never get to know what being loved feels like

If only I had some dew of me I could put on people’s eye lids

Shakespeare

God you’re weird

This means what?

Lover from another

Time

Who appears to be speaking directly to me

Stop it you cad

Why do I feel I’ve just opened an entire box of desperately loving

Yet another lover

Written in pages

These daytime nightmares are wearing me down

This should would could haven’t won’t never just keeps going round

The thoughts of having thought of sleep because it’s there

Only ever do I remember it having been there in the darkness the dark place the dream space the only world I understand

Never had I thought perhaps it wasn’t worth a closer look I merely never would without being told to

I’m running out of time to have a happy life my days are numbered and they’ll end

When they do will it be without having known

What a real ending looks like

Any good one

Lucky him

Lucky you

Wrapped up in blue

And never to be seen before under this sun the darkness does fall

With heavy sighs and lost breaths I see the solidarity of being together

When no one has cared or would in the reality of it

And when true happiness grace the eyes and ears of others does wanting it not taint my own heart?

And following the pain of having nothing to say back

When there could have been if not for something I will never know

To have a feeling of wanting that which has not only not been granted but not offered

Within this eternity wracked and filled with this emptiness I feel would wanting it not just make me darker?

The purple shed to give way to the black hole left within

Without him

But lucky her lucky him

I never get used to losing the win

Please be true,

Please be true,

Please be true

My only words for you

Spoken empty in a dark place they resonate

Words that can’t do anything alone

Everything and more

If there would be could be anything good to come it would be you

Silent in the face of thinking you’ve found it

Maybe this time you’ve found it

Oh dawn riser

You’re the view of him from the ground

Oh dawn riser your laughter is twisted and right

Dawn riser you never can quite tell the truth

Tell me truly, is it weird I like you?

Can the heat of the joker trickster laughter

Is he having fun?

While you keep your mouth running like a gun

But I know I can’t

Know I can

Love without trusting

Empty backwards plans

Dawn riser

I see you rise

Just do that