Elucidating Questions

What a dream

I enjoy playing the fool

The person who says what everyone thought but never ventured forth

To say

The way I spoke it another way in a way

That brought a tuna on stage

Side note though I subconsciously went for mermaid immediately

And I would totally love a tuna

I would love the fuck out of a tuna

Why do they not see a love that just loves I wonder?

Must ears really be penises? This isn’t some crafted Disney scene where the artist got bored and brave

He was just writing

Ah well

The fool I play

I’m not seeing a dark and sexual tone mostly

Dumb love falling people in love

Ah well I am after all only a fool

What a dream though

I wish I could wake to love

At least I’m not Hippolyta

I stare into empty message spaces thinking

Do I want to?

Or even more often

What do I do?

Silence follows

The fault in the silence is loneliness

Like a hand presses from inside my face

My head hurts

Where do I start or start or even know where trust is?

He wished this life on me

He wished this life on me

I’m still shook shaking

The symbol for my adoptive grandmother

The hummingbird has become so there in my life but

There are two and

I don’t know how

They are because where her bench is dragonflies fly everywhere

Next to a lake

But this is not there and

I flinched as one flew by

Despite the spectacularity of it

Where did it come from?

I flinched because I remembered her

And I feel I must have disappointed

What a nightmare

At least there aren’t night terrors

I’ve seen this many times

Friends don’t lie

Friends are forever

Friends

Have never been like this

They’ve always lied and walked away eventually

I can’t seem to reconcile

How friends could be anything other than temporary people who wander in and out

No one ever stays

It’s better to never get attached so when they leave it doesn’t kill you

Or to just be alone I suppose that’s why I have no friends

No one ever stays

Water filled moments in tiny unknown flecks

As oxygen as water and it comes inside

How to breathe only what is told to be breathed

When they forget half the equation

And compliance is impossible

A nightmare

Whispered the terror over the wandering mage

A dark communication

As the moon fades away

Just picking at the scraps that are left behind even so simple a mind can engineer

A bellow in my ear

My dear friend

Hello

Compassion makes a quiet entry

Are you kidding he was screaming

No you’re right, a quiet messenger in the darkness

Thank you friend

If there can truly be a wellness following a nightmare such as this I hope finding it is not the battle it usually is

Behind it is

Lying

Dishonour

Easy love

And possessiveness