Elucidating Questions

Here you go trading in who you’ve been

I watch you change your skin

Where you’re in

Does it fit?

I see you pushing it

This envelope of not you

I hear your song

Where no melody comes

No symphony to sink in no guitar line to ride on

Merely sounds

Oh where oh where has the rock and roll gone?

I see you serving to impress

Switching up your dress

Dressing ready and willing to have the

Times

Thrust on you

Tell us where’s that one hit baby?

Locked inside your theory maybe

Aiming for number one

Instead of making it and then holding your breath

No danger in the formulaic creation do re mi

Except another which sounds like every other

Glimmer of lightless stars

Keep trading in who you’ve been

No one would recognise you now

It comes from deep in my head

Up side my head

Still want to see you

Still want to meet you

Still want to help you

Still want to hold you

Silence

It’s not silence when the music is playing softly in the background

How does it keep within?

These feelings never end

I could sit with one thousand Oaks

Would you be nearer then?

You remain my pain

My pain

But I’ll take it knowing you’re living better

Maybe I’ll take it knowing you’re better off

Maybe I’ll just take it and take it

And shake it then shake it

Maybe you’ll find pleasure in the pain

Maybe

I’ll still want you

Finally to be able to call Astoria home again

Eyes closed

No words

No words

A world where everything is how I left it

Where I can recognise each sound

Sliding about on notes and beats

Standing among the whispers that are my own

It’s mine

Asked for permission and silence tore it apart

Yet here is an answer that screams from my heart

This is the place I can call home

Safely tucked into each piece

Until it’s gone

I’m waiting for him to hit it

I’ve turned the other cheek

Knowing it is merely an invitation to be

Taken advantage of again

Ready and willing I know he’ll do it again

Aware I’m very stuck until I can find a way out

When every one else’s answer is clear

I turn to you and turn the cheek

Because it’s what you would do

If only if only

I find myself wishing I could repeat it

I’m not the one wanting to hurt you

I’m not the one wanting

But useless

How can I see through fair eyes only this world that isn’t what I meant it to be?

You, and You

You make me, in wanting to reach you, cut out little shapes in the paper and throw the dust upon you

Happier skies over there over there

So near yet far beyond ever coming within my grasp

I imagine our first meeting

As you revealing it’s not our first meeting

Implied reading

The way there’s no time

And you had no time for me

Expectations and pretences dripping

So there

So there

Would that have been different if this is the same?

Welcome

Oh welcome

Let me adorn you with praise and acceptance

While you decide how I should behave a live and react

Welcome welcome

Just another person who thinks they know the me

So there

So there

The backwards mirror

Showing me how it feels

When I already knew

Is this karma or just how my life goes?

Demanding

Always of me

Yet if I was to make demands they shut off shun me speak their cruel barbs and leave

So there

So there

Yet if there was one thing to be learnt it is that no matter what

It’s just people soliciting you for their own self indulgence

So there

So there

If only you were fucking kidding me

I tried to come with no pretences

They find me