Elucidating Questions

The first days in a new sky

The worst and most uncomfortable

When missing Sirius

When missing Orion

When the twins no longer say good morning and goodnight

Sitting under the light the night is far away

His brightness should be enough I shouldn’t stray

Yet I find myself wandering still

Seeking other lights under his glow

Does he seek my wanting?

Does he seek my loving?

Even now over my shoulder

He’s found his way onto the screen

Blinding me backwards

Stubbornly reaching my eyes despite my about face

Sol though Sol

My daylight companion

One

And then millions

Can’t you hear their chorus?

Does your light shine too bright to see them?

Do you recognise

Do you see the lights?

In daylight I still know they are

They are

If they aren’t they will be

Somewhere a swan a bear a spoon

I’m dreaming of winter skies

Bore does that which old men wrote in closed rooms with inked quills

Old words stolen whence in histories lost the crime is overlooked

Greatness in theft

Greatness in deception

Greatness in repetition

Star light star bright

The first star of the night

Arcturus shines as the waning light

Plucks the starlight into sight

The nose of the bear stretches across the sky

The first night’s stars to meet the eye

Turns waiting Eastward to try

To get the first look at the moon

Whose fullness will be rising soon

People who get me

But how easy am I to get?

How many of the secrets I never say paint their way into a dark canvas, covering the colour and dissolving them?

How can I be sure what is temporary what is real?

All I see is the right now

But my panicked, tired, mind

Shows me horrors from tomorrow

It’s just a day away

Yesterday’s gone along with the feeling of feeling known

I remain unknown

Darker feeling creeping in underneath the tapestry created by

Shooting smiles all around

This thick black ink I cannot escape

Slowly drinking the colour away

Right beside you

Another day

The light of the day fades out through the sky

Pulling night pulling night

The cry of the unwatered plants

The starving greenery

The parched burches and pines

Ever green

Until the drink fades

The air crisp and clear

The stars bright and slowly poking pin pricks out of the darkening above

Yet yes here we find again

No rain no rain

Dear sky

No dear sky

Please

Please

And the chorus sings on

Where has all the water gone?

I said I’d let a homeless man sleep on my couch

I did

What now?

I stand outside my house

Trying to convince myself that I’m just chain smoking

I can’t look at it

Can’t see most of it

I

Care very deeply for this person and there is

A certain self exile in it

I could be over there proactively fixing it

Instead I choose to be overwhelmed

Merely my own self failure to not notice the inconvenience of being homeless

Now I’ll stand motionless wishing for it to get better

Watch the wheel spin

What a time

What a time