Elucidating Questions

You get what you deserve

Every song singing thus is removed

You only get what you give

Disappears into the void too

What goes around don’t come around

Begins to sound more and more true

What you give doesn’t come back to you

It makes me cry

Forces tears to my eye

The unfair

The wrong

The pain of another person saying

Whatever you have you deserve it

And looking around the life living

Wondering why no matter how I try it always comes back to make me want to die

I’m screaming

Please help me live

And what I get

Is truly the opposite

I miss you in the moments it doesn’t happen how it should

In the moments left floundering

Like a ghost you’re over my shoulder

I see my moment

Think of yours

I miss what it could have been

The moment

Moments lost

I miss you

I miss the roads left untravelled

Nowhere to turn

Lost and alone

He’s using me

He’s using me

Can’t escape

Can’t make up the change

Drowning and he’s watching

Drowning as he’s watching

Can’t imagine what it would feel like to be loved anymore

All I see

All I see

Is this wasteland infront of me

No one to save me from the beast

Who sleeps next to me

The feeling of a missed hand

Be it a held one, a hit one, or a shake

The feeling in your chest when you miss a hand

That drop just below your breast bone

The clench

The discomfort you hide

The loss you leave behind

One thousand thousand trespasses forgotten in the wind

The day to day that won’t just make it better

The activities around exist in a vacuum where they will cease

Cease and shine no more

Through the grey

Nothing wrong

Nothing right

Nothing right

Enjoyment is something for other people to experience

I whisper as I continue living this life

Chosen without knowing how choosing changes or doesn’t change everything

There’s no choice now

Another day will melt away

Empty

And welcome the next

As empty as the first

Waiting around for the night time to come

It’s like waiting for the colour to bleed out of the world

Waiting for darkness

Waiting for your big shiny light to chill out for a damn second

So you can see several thousand more big shiny lights

They’re not so shiny

So tiny in the far far away

All that the day has is clouds who won’t fall

All it has is stingy clouds

All that has been is dry skies

Wind

Dry skies and wind

Which is fine if you don’t live in a rainforest

Daylight skies

Disappointed and yet

The clouds float by elsewhere to lie

And I must be patiently waiting

For the sky to meet my demands

The first star I always see because I know where to look

Oh darkness

Sweet darkness

This body has not had near enough of you