Elucidating Questions

The day to day that won’t just make it better

The activities around exist in a vacuum where they will cease

Cease and shine no more

Through the grey

Nothing wrong

Nothing right

Nothing right

Enjoyment is something for other people to experience

I whisper as I continue living this life

Chosen without knowing how choosing changes or doesn’t change everything

There’s no choice now

Another day will melt away

Empty

And welcome the next

As empty as the first

Waiting around for the night time to come

It’s like waiting for the colour to bleed out of the world

Waiting for darkness

Waiting for your big shiny light to chill out for a damn second

So you can see several thousand more big shiny lights

They’re not so shiny

So tiny in the far far away

All that the day has is clouds who won’t fall

All it has is stingy clouds

All that has been is dry skies

Wind

Dry skies and wind

Which is fine if you don’t live in a rainforest

Daylight skies

Disappointed and yet

The clouds float by elsewhere to lie

And I must be patiently waiting

For the sky to meet my demands

The first star I always see because I know where to look

Oh darkness

Sweet darkness

This body has not had near enough of you

Thinking about the people whose gaze you meet once

Walking by

In a car

On a bus

Maybe you smiled for them

Maybe you wanted to so badly

But couldn’t react fast enough

Maybe they were gone before your lips had the chance to hear

The thought

How many hundreds slip past?

Still they slip past

No thoughts of how the chances of your four eyes finding each other simultaneously is a one in billions chance

No matter two completely separate lives coming completely into sync for that one point five seconds

No lost sleep on how you both continue your day from that second on without another thought of eachother

Yet,

Perhaps complete strangers are your most common source of interaction

Maybe that one single view of one single person is more than you’ll see of anyone you know today

Perhaps that meeting of mutual sights confirms both disconnected existences

Just for a second

And then they’re gone

We don’t miss them

Yet

We try to catch the eye of strangers sometimes

What purpose does one point five seconds serve?

How much happier would you be if every meeting with a human turned into a meeting with a dog?

Feeling so tired and out of control

Feeling so underwhelmed

Sitting under the evening sun

Wishing for a way around

So simple subtle silent pending moments

Not here or there

Not anywhere

Once it’s over what do we do?

Inhale whisper your taste of regret

Trying to hide me sister?

Trying to hide me away?

Don’t get the whole without the half and half

Moon’s shadow

Lost Oracle

Nine fucking lives

Lives

Lihves not lighves

Oh text

Twixt

When in one rose there are two entwined

I said two

I said two

Oh dear sister

Fear you the claws or the teeth?

Fear not dwelling dark demanding

After it all

We still tried

Hello

How are you today?

Today I am feeling within a world slightly off balance

Slightly right

Not sure it it’s so right

Hello

How are you today

Why does it feel like a demanding

Rather than an asking?

Effort aside

I just wanted to love him

How I wanted to listen to him

That’s my day

It’s far away

On shores

How are you today?

I’m afraid my pleasant interactions have implied you have a power over me

I will not be what you tell me to be