Elucidating Questions

I wonder if I came alone

Never found my people

Just people

They all go by the way side

Different directions

Different paths

Faded away

Never

Sssynced

Up

Maybe I’m alone

Alone

Alonly the lonely survive

The guitar cries

Maybe I survive

Says the siren

Sings the song

Never close enough

Close enough

Maybe I’m alone

Does it hurt?

Perhaps if I flit flying

Away away from the pain

Here the question repeats

Does it hurt?

More than words can describe

The hole left in me

How I wish I could be free of these moments

Moments where I love him and I miss him

And he said “I love you” too.

What did it mean? Did it simply cease to exist in that moment?

Where did all of the love up until then go

I wonder

Whispers in spoken violence

I love him

Love me not

We must never speak again

And it hurts because to think of the future

But wasn’t that what just happened wasn’t that my future?

I…

And left to put back together the pieces

Does the glue make it stronger over time?

Such a bond so completely finished

Just a snip

But I miss

But I wish I didn’t

If I want a future now I have to make it

By myself

Pain, pain

Go away

If only it meant the weather could stay

Why must you hurt me so with your shifts

And your dew

When I love you so much

Managing finances with fibromyalgia.

That was a joke.

Managing to remember an important thing with fibromyalgia.

That was another.

It’s so much all the time for no reason and it sucks like a black hole.

I’m just the galaxy trying to keep my light out of it.