Elucidating Questions

Like you remembered to feel emotion

We left her there we put her there we left her

Behind cold brick and linoleum floors

Behind doors and there dogs there’s always dogs

We left her there

Can I undo it?

This desperate attempt to realise you didn’t cry

Until you remembered to cry

Why I went along with it

My insides screaming

Wrong

Wrong

Wrong

But silent tread let’s go to

That’s heartbreaking you said

I was immediately stabbed in the chest

With the end

It could matter

It could

I want to believe in a world where they are believing in the silence of

The silent march like toy soldiers

Because she said so so it must be

Mommy dearest

Mommy said so so silently

No longer shall she tread

Truly madly deeply dearly departed

Might I pluck your thread again

The hunger is eating at the corner of my eye

I can’t sleep

Can’t escape into the dream even though the dream will find him

It always finds him

The edge of the empty sword

Of being stabbed in the gut by emptiness

Coaxing a river of tears

I thought there was someone who could fill the emptiness not him left me

But the spot remains curiously empty

As empty as me

Where the wound is left gushing

Endless lost futures

Endless lost people

Hello

I’m not surprised that it’s you

Tick tock

Footprints lost in the sand of the beach

Where his screams lie

Called for comfort called unvoiced

A galaxy like a great scar across the sky

Holding us we push back and pull

I still love you

You don’t see me

I called and he answered instead

Redirected phone conversations

Spoilt unimpressed princess of the

Moon

Sisters in the sky help

We aren’t Royals

Unlike him

And so the man rises over the hill

Bad curtsies and niceties held tight in empty hands

I won’t return to the arena

He’s not looking

Nothing quite compares

Compares to the ice cold awakening from a long psychosis

Nothing quite resembles

The writing on the wall

You wonder if you leave it there

It’s proof

It’s proof

Proof of what?

You wonder looking back.

Well at least they’re all famous people

Or dead or what have you

A strange sort of lingering

The echoes of being in the echo

I could have been gone

Lost in the echo

If not for some happy accidents

We’ll call them happy

If not merely a sort of joke in themselves

I’ll delve if I so wish into dreams of dazzling

Gods and Goddesses

Stars and Planets

Non

What is the word

Nonjudgmental things

Save the wreckage it’s proof

Proof of something

Proof of

How many times do I have to tell myself to get the fuck back up before I hear it?

For once

For twice

All the feelings were so real when it’s real again you go searching

Down rabbit holes

Drenched in colours and ink

But what does it mean besides the dream

Of an unhappy nothing

One for the light

Two for the grave

In what sight given

Was anything made?

I can’t understand or even begin to explain myself

Of course I don’t have to

They’re all not actually people

They’re just pictures on a page

They’re only people if they see you back

It wonders

But what does it know?

Twilight

As the sun has dipped beyond the horizon and the light in the sky becomes a memory

The colours faded to grey and wander off somewhere before the darkness licks them away into blackness

The birth of the night a she reaches across the skies, her stars beginning to poke out holes in the perfect blue sky

Faded to dark blue as the world turns

My adorable obstruction

My charming borrower

Whittling silent stories

Of your life in your life

Beautiful knowledge and darkened prose

Darling caretaker

Sweet worker

And daring behind your eyes I see a boy and a man side by side

Do you stand beside him or beside you does he stand?

Unwritten

Beyond the wall built, years of brick and mortar

Still you shine with all the light

There’s nothing here to tempt the wrong words at the wrong time

Only I stay beside,

Wondering what comes next