Elucidating Questions

I am old

I look through the world with old eyes

The creature that would like to go back to its nap

I am sloth

I am aged by the weight of knowing so much more by accident

With the outward appearance of a young dumb thing

Yet the bones leaden

Joints of paper and wet glue

It sticks?

I always have a reason

Oh sorry they call it

Excuse

For everything

I look with the eyes of something much older

Very tired

Body of lead

My mother, how I love her

Like a fog

I love it while it swirls around me

Wise it whispers

But then it flows on past

So far away

Try to grab hold but it’s

Beautiful

Mist

I love you, I miss you

Of course others feel this way

Do you feel this way?

Sway

Alone

But it’s not a good thing

I try so hard not to see so many people

Enjoying

If I only had someone I could

There is more than I’ve had

The loneliness eats me alive

There’s just no connection

Where I am and where I want to be

When they all went out of reach

Tell me a story about the words

You were just too depressed

As if I was enjoying it

What a laugh

At me

It’s often a laugh at me

It’s not funny

I’m sure it’s funny for someone

So now when I say

I need somebody

Nobody

They say I did this to myself

So why do they all just walk away?

They don’t notice

They languish in the change

They don’t remember

Humans have such short…

Yet here I am unable to remember anything fighting for a chance to…

I remember.

Sunny days spent end on end when

He burns the clouds out of existence

They fleet they flit they fly

Goodbye cloudy days

In the rainforest

They all forgot

It’s a rain forest

It was a rainforest

I miss it.

It’s quiet

Quite enough time to look at you

Wishing silently in the darkness

It must be nice

Subtleties lies in the empty void I find

Why do I find it

I don’t want it

Silence’s empty noises in space

If I scream out loud who will hear me?