Elucidating Questions

There’s no getting used to feeling

Alone and alone

And to be both

Lying in the darkness

Just holding on to the thread

And I’ll stay here holding it too

I wonder how many others have lived

Alone and alone

Is there any sense in spilling you all over the pages anymore?

Gone and gotten and you married her anyway

Love lost yearns after what doesn’t exist

Made up memories of what right would be

Wrong wrong wrong

It hardly mattered to start with

Can detonations be undone?

Fizzling perhaps

It’s a strange saying I can’t repeat

I can I just won’t

It never provides new information

Unnecessary spaces filled with ink

It’s all worthless

If only something could be good for just once

A right step

The right place

No cracked glass

Tilted colours

Could something be just right?

Is it impossible in this possible impossible possibility?

Couldn’t it fit perfectly for once?

Can’t it just go how it’s supposed to?

No kink in the plan?

It seems to happen for others

I wonder what it’s like?

I just want someone to love me as much as I love you

How does that make sense?

Every night nightly at least there’s drugs or isn’t really

He sees me

And the darkness wakes

Repeating

If I had love perhaps my mind would stop

Neverending the story just the same slightly different

I dreamt of you

I love when I do

Did you miss her before you met her?

Just icy eyes chilling my soul on fire

I wish someone would love me the way I love

Does no one know how?

I wish you knew

I love you too

Lockstep with the sun

Burning eyes

Of tears translated from rays watching chaos

Do you cry because it burns

Or do you cry because its overwhelming sadness begins to consume you from the inside?

When you look at him does he burn your eyes?

Does he blind you for daring set a gaze upon him?

Or is it so magnificent

The eyes merely have completed seeing

Everything is light

And all the light touches is under his command.