Elucidating Questions

No one ever loves me the way I love them

Like a slight of hand run by too many times

They brush it off

Or they never see it

We’re back to invisible and alone again

In the middle of an over populated land

Invisible and alone

It’s nice knowing some people like some stuff that happens in my phone

Invisible and safe

And alone

But safe

Can I learn to love again?

While loving too much

Or selfishly

Not getting enough love back

But we are selfish

Pulling back the paint

Dragging of furniture across the floor

The remains of what remains

The colours under the colours he painted it

Returning to its former state

A house is not a home

Until it’s restored

And then,

Like a flower blooming back to its full glory

It will be

I am old

I look through the world with old eyes

The creature that would like to go back to its nap

I am sloth

I am aged by the weight of knowing so much more by accident

With the outward appearance of a young dumb thing

Yet the bones leaden

Joints of paper and wet glue

It sticks?

I always have a reason

Oh sorry they call it

Excuse

For everything

I look with the eyes of something much older

Very tired

Body of lead

My mother, how I love her

Like a fog

I love it while it swirls around me

Wise it whispers

But then it flows on past

So far away

Try to grab hold but it’s

Beautiful

Mist

I love you, I miss you

Of course others feel this way

Do you feel this way?

Sway

Alone

But it’s not a good thing

I try so hard not to see so many people

Enjoying

If I only had someone I could

There is more than I’ve had

The loneliness eats me alive

There’s just no connection

Where I am and where I want to be

When they all went out of reach

Tell me a story about the words

You were just too depressed

As if I was enjoying it

What a laugh

At me

It’s often a laugh at me

It’s not funny

I’m sure it’s funny for someone

So now when I say

I need somebody

Nobody

They say I did this to myself

So why do they all just walk away?