Elucidating Questions

If only something could be good for just once

A right step

The right place

No cracked glass

Tilted colours

Could something be just right?

Is it impossible in this possible impossible possibility?

Couldn’t it fit perfectly for once?

Can’t it just go how it’s supposed to?

No kink in the plan?

It seems to happen for others

I wonder what it’s like?

I just want someone to love me as much as I love you

How does that make sense?

Every night nightly at least there’s drugs or isn’t really

He sees me

And the darkness wakes

Repeating

If I had love perhaps my mind would stop

Neverending the story just the same slightly different

I dreamt of you

I love when I do

Did you miss her before you met her?

Just icy eyes chilling my soul on fire

I wish someone would love me the way I love

Does no one know how?

I wish you knew

I love you too

Lockstep with the sun

Burning eyes

Of tears translated from rays watching chaos

Do you cry because it burns

Or do you cry because its overwhelming sadness begins to consume you from the inside?

When you look at him does he burn your eyes?

Does he blind you for daring set a gaze upon him?

Or is it so magnificent

The eyes merely have completed seeing

Everything is light

And all the light touches is under his command.

It’s melting

I’m lonely

I miss him

I love him

There is no going back

There is no undo

It’s better this way

The tears falling down my cheeks as

It’s melting

All the thoughts swirling

In meaningless whorls

I know better

I know better

I love him

It’s over and broken

I know better

They say we’re friends.

But I watch in silence

As they make plans around me

Without me

They say we’re friends

Yet I remain invisible

Flash forwards

They aren’t the future

They’re an anxious brain tick

Tick tick

Taking for a ride by the thought of

But this could be

It won’t be

Only ever works out in completely different ways

Dream me seems nice enough

Tough enough too

Sick of being sick

Thought rollercoasters