Elucidating Questions

Sometimes my mind imagines that we’re back together

Like nothing happened

Easy as forgetting a pillow over your face

Drops of memories where it wasn’t so bad so

The what ifs

Don’t go to bed without your ears plugged the bats get in

It’s a little game we play

And then put it away

And we still miss you

Valentine’s Day is hard because I think of you

Never mind your face plastered everywhere I can see

Without you I’m just me

Without me you’re the same

She told you to choose, so you did

So you did

Maybe there will be a day when I will sit happy and you will sit happy

And we will be no where near each other

But we will be happy

Apart.

The days roll by and I scream
Wait stop!

But the time keeps flowing undaunted to my cries

Time passing so quickly yet there are times when it slows to nothing

If only I could harness it

If only I could own it

What would I do, where would I go,

Complete freedom of time

What did I do?

I said I did it I didn’t say it was good

I said I did it I didn’t say it was good

What’s good?

Bees are good

Hardly a bee

Though it stings more than once in too many places to name

Such secret whispers into nothing

What happens when eyes pour over and suddenly

See it?

Christ.

We open our mouths in quiet ways

Only in word are we alive

Like a tiny locked room in my heart

You can’t come out, but I can come find you

Empty in the darkness until the light shines through

But wasn’t it lovely?

Don’t you wish for more?

Unsightly sights in a mind tricked into longing

However long the long nights of wanting

The door is locked

The key is still in my hand

I wished for you

There was a shooting star

So I wished for you

But you’re still not here

Is this thing on?

I said I wish you were here

In that moment of seeing the end of a journey

How many thousands of years?

Lights

Goodbye

I wish

You were here

And I wish you could find me