Elucidating Questions

I ping them

Ping them like it’s a full body thing

Tingles and all

Sex?

Yes, sex, but I like your song

Oh yes right

I wonder which one it is?

Which one is most curious?

Not that anyone else would understand

I think they like me

Hmm they locked it

Threw away the key too

Well now I have nowhere to mutter to myself quietly

How outrageous

Guess you can’t call a bitch a bitch anymore

That aside

What is the reason for the mumbling

Is it to clear the head?

Now we will have to mutter elsewhere

I cry

I cry and they tell me to stop

And I cry more

I cry because it hurts

They say I’m being manipulative

But I can’t stop it

They say I’m unbalanced

But I try so hard to stop it

I can’t control

Stab to the heart

They overflow

They say I’m trying to do something

But I know crying fixes nothing

Yet there it is again

Why does crying make me a villain?

I love the winter

Living in the cold

Falling gentle snow

The quiet of a winter walk

In the silence of the sleeping world

I awake with the spring

Brought to life by the waking things

Birds singing the return of the sun

The flowers open their delicate blossoms

The warmth of the returning ball of fire

I love the winter

But I wake with the spring

I opened up the window

And said hello to spring

And said goodbye to winter

The birds chirp, alive awake

The bugs, the deer, the rabbits

Spring has sprung, but I kept winter shuttered here

One day more one day more

As the room fills with spring

And the sun pours in

We say goodbye to winter

She settles down with them

I keep on walking through the city with no people

When I think into a place

That wonders how much of my self is lost

When I give myself to them

I don’t want to lose myself

I think defiantly

I am me