Elucidating Questions

I cry

I cry and they tell me to stop

And I cry more

I cry because it hurts

They say I’m being manipulative

But I can’t stop it

They say I’m unbalanced

But I try so hard to stop it

I can’t control

Stab to the heart

They overflow

They say I’m trying to do something

But I know crying fixes nothing

Yet there it is again

Why does crying make me a villain?

I love the winter

Living in the cold

Falling gentle snow

The quiet of a winter walk

In the silence of the sleeping world

I awake with the spring

Brought to life by the waking things

Birds singing the return of the sun

The flowers open their delicate blossoms

The warmth of the returning ball of fire

I love the winter

But I wake with the spring

I opened up the window

And said hello to spring

And said goodbye to winter

The birds chirp, alive awake

The bugs, the deer, the rabbits

Spring has sprung, but I kept winter shuttered here

One day more one day more

As the room fills with spring

And the sun pours in

We say goodbye to winter

She settles down with them

I keep on walking through the city with no people

When I think into a place

That wonders how much of my self is lost

When I give myself to them

I don’t want to lose myself

I think defiantly

I am me

Sometimes my mind imagines that we’re back together

Like nothing happened

Easy as forgetting a pillow over your face

Drops of memories where it wasn’t so bad so

The what ifs

Don’t go to bed without your ears plugged the bats get in

It’s a little game we play

And then put it away

And we still miss you

Valentine’s Day is hard because I think of you

Never mind your face plastered everywhere I can see

Without you I’m just me

Without me you’re the same

She told you to choose, so you did

So you did

Maybe there will be a day when I will sit happy and you will sit happy

And we will be no where near each other

But we will be happy

Apart.