Elucidating Questions

How it feels to be alone

You throw up, you wipe it up

Lying in a state of sick

Wishing there was a kind hand

A cool wash cloth on your forehead

Something nice said

You’ll be alright

In the silence

When you’re alone

There’s no one to see how sick you feel

Only your sickness to keep you company

Trying to convince yourself it’s not as bad as you think it is

And once it’s gone it’s like it never happened

A blink in time

I wish I wasn’t alone

Hey

Do you feeling it in your skin?

Hey

Dragging secrets from within

Scrabbling and scribbling

Ripping in insanity

You taste it

Not quite taste it

It could be good

It could be great

Just one more taste

Just one more taste

Throw the fire and the money in

It comes from within

Crawling in your skin…

It’s not a pretty tale

To whisper into ears

The way it becomes the shape of you

But your shape is never the same

I feel like I’m gasping

For air

But it’s not air it’s

Social interaction

Can we be together?

So far apart

It doesn’t measure

The distance of our hearts

If far apart you be

Together you can hold

The threads of fate connecting

Red, silver, and gold

I ping them

Ping them like it’s a full body thing

Tingles and all

Sex?

Yes, sex, but I like your song

Oh yes right

I wonder which one it is?

Which one is most curious?

Not that anyone else would understand

I think they like me

Hmm they locked it

Threw away the key too

Well now I have nowhere to mutter to myself quietly

How outrageous

Guess you can’t call a bitch a bitch anymore

That aside

What is the reason for the mumbling

Is it to clear the head?

Now we will have to mutter elsewhere

I cry

I cry and they tell me to stop

And I cry more

I cry because it hurts

They say I’m being manipulative

But I can’t stop it

They say I’m unbalanced

But I try so hard to stop it

I can’t control

Stab to the heart

They overflow

They say I’m trying to do something

But I know crying fixes nothing

Yet there it is again

Why does crying make me a villain?