Poetry
This is the general category of fuckery that goes on and on and doesn’t seem interested in stopping.
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Did you think you had to write
All day and all night
Every little word
All to save the world
Like there was an answer to the pen
Little curses written in
Maybe godly maybe sin
And just sit back and wait?
Did you walk the same road
Always in circles always around
Searching for some reason
Some person
No matter how far away
Always feeling nearer
Hidden messages at play
Delusions clearer and clearer
Or was it the madness that raught
Secret hidden miseries taught
Pulled through days of nothing
Sinking deep into the waves
Do I even know you like I think?
Or was it really just a blink
Some lies I taught myself to get through to the next day
I suppose I’ll never know
Cause I’ll be here
And you’ll be there
I suppose that’s the joke
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How do I love you?
I’ve never met you
One time a saw you
So tired
How do I love you?
You’re beautiful
Your voice like an angel
I wish I could see you
I don’t know how to love from a distance
I have to approach you
I have to see you
How do I love you?
Leaving little notes where I can
Two thousand poems
If only you would read them
How do I love you?
I love you
I miss you
But it never really mattered to you
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Because I’m waiting for you
Stuck in the same old place
With the same old face
The sky is blue
What to I want to do, why?
There’s no room in this place to fly
The wedding bell tune
The hospital bells
The way the twisted figure tells
Lost and left like a loon
Invisible feelings
Intangible failings
And you there all along
Just writing the same old song
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That stings a bit
Rub alcohol in it
Doesn’t catch the truth
Hanging on the smile of the moon
That it’s a joke
And of course it is
They’re always jokes
But it makes the feelings feel dirty
Do I wash them?
What will be left once the ink runs out into the water?
A handful of coincidences that aren’t as good
Aren’t as real
Aren’t good enough
My love is worthless
My love is eternal
And worthless
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Will I miss you forever?
Will it hurt forever?
And, me, a mere watcher.
I want to ask how could you again,
Hear an answer like it would fix everything
Missing you doesn’t bring you back
You follow me through my daily life like a specter
Waiting for the moment to jump out and once again
Remind me you’re gone
I wish I could have saved you
I wish I could have saved you
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Dear Mother,
I’m sorry all we do is take
Never give
But our gifts would be worthless in the sight of your Mothering
I’m sorry we slowly
Methodically
Purposefully
Choke out every life we can
I’m sorry we shape and carve you
As if your face weren’t already perfect
I wish I could cut all their threads of misery to shreds
Stop everything that changes you
Dear Mother,
I love you
In that way that love is worthless and cannot stand up to the sheer mass of you
I wish on stars hoping they’ll send help
Someone to stop us from this terrible deed
I wish I had the power to stop them
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