Elucidating Questions

Waiting waiting

For what?

To be the one?

To be able to afford to live?

They say if you work hard it will grow to fruition

But they didn’t take me into account

It doesn’t matter how hard you try or work

Things don’t go quite right

I’m waiting

Waiting

Hoping the world with shift

Change into a place I belong

Somewhere I belong

Somewhere…

I keep coming down all these empty roads

To dead ends running

Trying to find my way

To the tick of the clock

My bag is ripped

My shoes are worn

I’m tired

Tired tired

Keep coming down these empty streets

To meet nothing again

Finding lights in twists and turns

Not for me

My bag is ripped and worn

My heart is broken and torn

Walking down these empty roads

Alone

We don’t trust humans

We never will

Even though they’re animals

Animals are better

Like humans are some mutation

Animals don’t have expectations

Nothing to disappoint

If you have food they love you

They love you for having food

Humans don’t love you

They just take

They say I love you

And never mean it

Animals never say I love you

But they do

We don’t trust humans

All they do is cause pain

They want

Want

Want

But never give

Animals will give you everything

Their whole self in your arms

Never hide the truth

Never tell you they hate you

They love unconditionally

They don’t judge you for failing them

We don’t trust humans

We never will

If I knew the right words I would say them

If I had an answer I’d give it

But I’m not capable of such great things

Not capable of good things

I’m just a shell

Left in every day to wander

I’m a watcher

Meant to see and not be heard

When I speak nothing but poison comes out

Flowing from the hole

All that’s left of me

Is poison

And a hole

No one gets me

I’m alone

They say they’re friends

But I’m not who they think I am

I feel like a liar

Like there’s a mask I can’t remove

I try to show myself

But they never get me

And it’s my own fault

I’m just broken

The hole is too big

There’s nothing left of me

Just a shell that exists

I want to kill everything that makes me feel

So I don’t feel alone anymore

If only I wasn’t a failure

Not a waste of space

I don’t belong here

Just an alien in a big world

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