Elucidating Questions

Isn’t it strange?

Isn’t it peculiar?

The world outside is considered harsher

But she can keep the plants alive

All these humans with their dead and dying plants

Mother Earth keeps them alive outside

And they consider the brutality of the wild to be worse

But when the wolf kills the bunny the wolf was hungry

And when your dog kills your bunny the dog just wanted to tear it to shreds and destroy it like a toy

So which is more brutal?

Do you think they wilt inside because the air is not fresh?

The water not rain?

Is the dog more violent than the wolf because of his closeness to humans?

His proximity to our violence?

Is outside truly more brutal than working

Slaving

Every day of your life just to die with 50¢ in the bank you leave to your little brother?

I mean I suppose you can’t just…go… And live… Outside you’d need furs, which is why they wore them probably

But I wonder how much harder it is

To be wild

I’m so domesticated I can hardly imagine, but the plants seem to get it

Always listen to plants they’re older than us and far better at being at harmony with the Earth

Or maybe something inbetween

You get a house but you get your own food

I wonder if the wilds are truly wild

To someone born within them

It is October 21st

The leafs have just begun to turn red

The maples sensed something was up and started turning two weeks before anything else did

Is no one concerned?

The trees are usually bare by now, rattling in the wind with their spindly branches and leafless sticks

I’m not saying it’s terrible

But it’s bad

Seasons are moving and summer is hotter and drier than ever

And the humans just live through it like it’s normal

Denying climate change

I used to live in a rain forest

Rain forest

You know, with rain

Now the Summers are so dry the plants turn brittle and dead

Now the Falls come in late and pour down the rain that was missed over summer,

Coaxing the wildness back to life only for it to slip straight into sleep

Today is the first day of leafs falling and the wind playing with them

But if Fall is this late,

What of winter?

So they watched

One of the most heinous things a human can do to another human

And they watched

Can they even be considered human now?

How do you lack so much as any empathy

Sympathy?

A single bone in your fucking back?

And what terrifies me

Is that they exist

Which means there are more

And I could know them

I wish human-beings were less fucking terrifying

If there is a human-being who will pick worms up off the concrete and put them back on ground

There is one who will step on them

If there is a person who would rescue twenty rabbits

There is a person who would abandon twenty rabbits

I wonder what the opposite of me is?

I hope I never meet them.

I wish there were a way to never meet or interact with any of the other

Hello, I am the type of person who cares for anyone I meet

If you are not please go away

Hello, I am the type of person who feels like an alien because humans are terrible

If you are not please…just don’t bother me

I wonder if she’s okay

I wonder if she feels safe in her bed

I wonder if she will ever trust another person again

I wish I could tell her…

I wish I could tell her

I would have stopped him

No matter what

Today the topic of

Hot guys

Came up

And I looked at all the options just like I did back then

And none of them were you

So I didn’t like any of them

Even though I don’t sit crying professing my love for you

Every one that isn’t you is just a space inbetween

You and me is never

But I still pine

Still compare them all to you

To the one face I fell in love with

Sight unseen

Voice screaming through

I was having a bad moment all by my self on the side of the road and a man walked by

Hello

I looked up and replied, just as he turned away I saw Robin Williams in his face.

Then he turned around once more

No definitely not Robin Williams

But as he walked away I wondered to myself

But wouldn’t it be just like Robin Williams to appear in the face of a stranger for a moment in the moment you feel so low and

Just for a second Robin Williams said hello to you

And once it’s not him it’s someone who saw you enough to say

Hello

I wish people knew the amount of pain it takes me to tap out

I wish they could feel the semiconsciousness as I fight through the fog just to be alive

I wish they saw all the moments my consciousness faded out and I was nothing but a lifeless void for a moment

I wish they felt the aches that never stop and the pains that always change and rake through my flesh

I wish when I said “I don’t feel well”

They could all feel what I meant