Poetry
This is the general category of fuckery that goes on and on and doesn’t seem interested in stopping.
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I’ll say hello in my way
Long lost words unsaid while thinking was all I could do
I can’t make a decision not made for me
But you’ve been on my mind and I miss you
I miss your music and how it makes me feel
I don’t think you’re beyond forgiveness
I don’t know if there’s anything to forgive
Being on the outside is like that
Staring into plays put on in glass rooms
Your poetry still speaks to me and I miss it
I hope you’re doing well in spite of it all
I wish I could hear about it in some upcoming song
I still rock out to your music when I’m all alone
I hope you get to make more some day
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I wish I could show you
How the universe doesn’t let me forget you
This time it was Benny and the Jets
Benny
And I’m not trying to think of you
Could go through my day without a reminder that you
You are
It’s like you’re always there
But I’ve become accustomed to it, so I live in blissful unawareness
To the white noise that is your existence
There but never there
And then the universe comes along and
Have you heard about our Lord and Saviour Joshua Ramsay?
Well yes but I was forgetting about him for a moment
It won’t let me forget
I mean I don’t want to forget either
I just wish I could show you
How the universe keeps on reminding me
That no matter how far apart we are we are so close together
I wish I could show you
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Every year I wonder if I won’t acclimate to the cold weather
And then I’m wearing a knit cardigan and a t-shirt at -6
Despite having a disease that flares up at extreme temperatures
And not being able to tolerate the heat
At all
The cold never bothered me anyway
My one strength
My only claim to something kind of cool
I’m not cold
But you are
All you other people
With your mitts and your scarves and your hats and your thick coats
I laugh in your general directions because in this I win for once
Not beauty, not physique, not able-ness, not strength but
I don’t need a winter coat
I scared the hell out of Japanese people when it was -15 and I was wearing a t-shirt and a hoodie
My one super power
All I need is a tall mountain and an ice castle and I’ll sing Let it Go all night long
I suppose it’s better than nothing
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Merry Christmas to you too, you beautiful, impossible, wonderful man
I hope that light in your eyes stays there for years to come
I hope I get to hear your voice again and again this coming year
May you stay happy and safe in your fortress
May you have many more years with all your animals
If I could have one wish
It’s that you’d see me saying merry Christmas and know that I want nothing but happiness and joy for you
You’re spectacular
You’re beautiful
You’re ethereal
You’re wonderful
And I love you
Merry Christmas
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I can hear bagpipes playing
Quietly
My body is in over stimulation mode
And so my ears are picking up the sounds of bagpipes in the white noise of the heater in the vents
There are no bagpipes
My senses worked too hard for too long
Now my ears are making up sounds within sounds
When I say I’m tired and need a rest
It’s because my body does this to me
Sorry I can’t sleep
The bagpipes are too loud
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Every second was worth it to see your face and hear your voice for a short clip that made no sense but
There you were and it was enough
I wish I could tell you merry Christmas and you’d see it and it would mean something
I was glad to see you but now I wish I could see you
Sigh
If only I could be content with content
I wouldn’t feel these moments where I yearn to be… Just near you
If it was appropriate I’d live in a closet you never use so I could be near you and hear you without being seen or heard myself
But that’s “creepy” and “not appropriate”.
I suppose I’m just one of thousands that would pay to be near you
If I could afford it
I suppose at least I got to see five seconds of you today
I hope I get to see five seconds of you tomorrow
Merry Christmas you impossible man
Merry Christmas
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