Elucidating Questions

Maybe the reason there are no aliens

Is that a truly advanced civilization

Would know their planet is the perfect place

The only place in space for them

Where they were born and grown and raised

That gives them air and food and space

That they would never bleed her dry

And then turn their malice towards the sky

There would be no drive to leave

If they took good care and let her breathe

Maybe they’re all safe at home

Knowing that there’s no need to roam

They have accepted that life is fleeting

And spend every day knowing its meaning

Perhaps a truly advanced civilization

Has no need for space domination

I hope you stay here beside me

For many years to come

Far away, but in truth very near

Just because you make my days better

Selfishly I want to listen to your music forever

My forever

Alongside is fine with me

Even forever parallel

I’d like to meet you

I wonder what would happen

Another selfish thing

I could not stand in front of you

I could not meet your gaze

But I hope you stay near

Around

Forever

I want an epic romance

Someone to write songs about me

Even though more than likely I’d be the one writing

But I wish someone loved me enough to write something epic and beautiful about me

Sometimes I wonder if I’m not worthy of love

Sometimes I wonder if I’m alone because of it

I wish it wasn’t just a fantasy over and over again

I wish I had something real

It doesn’t really matter what I wish, but I want it

I want him so badly but it’s not an option

And thinking back on last relationship and how they went wrong

It would take epic proportions to get me back into romance

Something beautiful

Wouldn’t it be nice to see something beautiful.

Mom, I love you

But I don’t think that says it all

You’ve made living more bearable

You’ve supported me

You see

I used to think these things were a given

Something to be expected by every mom

But they’re not

There are moms out there that do terrible things to their children

But you’re always there no matter what

You accepted me for who I am

When I came out as a man when I came out as an in-between

You accepted my chosen name even though you were the one who chose my birth name

You didn’t hold some ideal of who I was supposed to be over my head you just let me be

Despite me being one of those awful voices that told you you weren’t sick

When I got sick you believed me immediately, supported me, understood me

You have helped keep my babies fed when I could not

You are this brilliant, bright, wonderful light in the world

I hope I shine even half as bright as you

Mom, I love you

But that doesn’t even express the half of it

Oh Universe what a mess

Well not such a mess that a vast mass of expanding mass could care

But we let it get like this

Fed the rich and starved the poor

Made companies people and homeless people nothing.

Made identity political

Made race political

Made love political

We bled the middle class until it was poor too

So we gave tax breaks to the rich

We made monsters leaders

And when they put on the clown show we danced around and let it happen

We didn’t see animals as people

We bred them into unholy versions of themselves so they’d feed us

We let our leaders funnel trillions of dollars into the science of how to kill each other better

To hell with our mother earth in the process

We mined, and burned, and logged and consumed

And now she’s sick and we will never fix it

That is if we live through the incoming nuclear end

Universe, if you could see us would you be ashamed?

I am

Gods help us

I want to love somebody

Be loved

But I don’t want to start a new relationship

I don’t want awkward getting to know you

Stepping through the fields of new flowers

I only fear treading upon them

I don’t want to cautiously enter into a newfound relationship

I just want to already know you and be in love with you and have you

Whoever you are

Watch this be some really funny joke where I spend my whole life yearning for companionship

And find none

At least it made me write a bunch of poem

I don’t want to not know who can love me

So sick of searching for what I need and never finding it

I don’t want a knight in shining armour

I want a tragically broken, deeply poetic, beautiful soul

Because it’s the same?

I don’t know if it’s the same

Am I tragically broken, deeply poetic, with a beautiful soul?

I could scoff at it

I’m not looking for a mirror I’m looking for

Similar, but different

似てる

I want your form to resemble something I can recognise

Somebody I already know in my soul

I don’t want to endlessly go through the rotation

Stranger, to related, to stranger

I want to see you

I wish I could see you