Elucidating Questions

I know you’re fine

I think I know you’re fine

I wish I knew you were fine

Could you just tweet out

I’m fine

Every four days or so?

Please?

It’s just the worry in my head gets to me when I notice the absence of someone

Congratulations you’re one of the few people whose absence I notice

It’d be nice if there was an are you fine button

Are you still alive?

Yes?

Good that’s all I wanted to know.

But, no.

Am I to assume silence means you’re having a great time or a bad one?

Not that there’s anything I could do if you were having a bad one

Curse these rich people for demanding our adoration and then not telling us they’re fine

Are you fine?

What do I do?

Do with this worry

Chester this is your fault

Why can’t I just get along with no money?

Working is killing me already

I’m so sick of living half alive for the privilege of having a roof over my head and food and medication.

I feel so over done

My body has been screaming at me to stop but I keep going anyways because I need the money.

It’s sick

It’s sick and twisted and anyone who reads this and thinks disabled people are supported enough in this world

Should probably end up disabled

Which, haha

Most elderly person have some kind of disability so have fun existing in this world you decided was okay when it gets you

My wrath is a tightly kept secret

That I want every person who mistreated me to feel how I felt

It’s fine I keep it to myself

I just wish this world was better for everyone

All these people shocked about the amount of smoke

Because it’s New York right? Surely the rich people paid enough for Mother to give them clean air right?

Await my supreme eye roll

You’ve only been allowing companies to continue to do exactly the same things and then things ten times worse for the past 50 years

Making fun of all the groups trying to tackle it because climate change was a joke

Well, there you go, you got exactly what you asked for, which is hell fire. Smoke comes from hell fire, enjoy.

They called me bleeding heart tree hugger

And now there are no trees to clean their air

Lucky it wasn’t us this year because

Spoiler alert

This was already happening five years ago!

In the middle of my insanity the sky turned red and I believed I’d caused it

There’s no forgetting that shit

But, no. Nothing.

At the very least perhaps some rich people will be inspired to try to help

Except it’s already too late

They didn’t hear the alarm bell ten years ago that said we had three years to completely change or else

Poor unfortunate souls living in the hell they created and uphold

Then they decided to set it on fire

You can find empathy in so many places

I don’t know if bugs do it, but mammals do.

Even predators under the right conditions, perhaps it’s just that it’s the right being

Sharks show attachments to humans, and there must be some empathy, some connection as beings that they feel for that to happen

But saying I’m empathic often provokes derision

Saying that I am an empathetic being that often understands and takes on people’s emotions

I wonder if it’s the hate of being understood or the hate of people who understand

Don’t get me started on energies

If you can’t read them you can’t know what it’s like to read them

Just like a cis person will never understand gender dysphoria in trans people

Unlived experiences can be listened to like a story

The emotions provoked by the experience can be understood

The experience itself is personal to whomever lived it

I wonder if it’s wrong to understand emotions

Not that I always understand my own

That’s more of a mental block than anything

I feel everything so strongly

The people I cannot understand are those who have little emotion

The ones who don’t feel things as strongly as I do

I wonder if being empathic is a skill or a detriment