Elucidating Questions

It must be nice

To be able to explain away the animosity

To be able to see people firing guns and say they’re not dangerous

It must be nice to explain away rich people collaborating with other rich people,

Who happen to be terrible

I feel so out of the world

Like you see someone firing guns and think it’s funny?

Something is wrong with these people

I know I’m a problem, I know I’m a mess, I know, I know, I know

But damn if they don’t explain away dangerous people easily

Just like they explained away Hitler until they were forced to admit, not that they were wrong in any sense of the word, that he was.

Is it easy to look at someone pointing a gun at someone you do not care about’s picture and shooting

And say “that’s not dangerous”?

I wonder what possesses these people

If they realise that by minimising the problem they are feeding the fire?

Hahaha, he’s so dumb

Let’s just skip over the fact that the rage was meant for a human

I’m jealous of all of your abilities to not notice anything wrong.

The sky is scaring me

Why are the clouds yellow?

Did someone pee in the clouds?

How rude of them

Also that strange fog seems to be back

Please for the love of god will you all stop losing Persona 4?

Though, let’s be fair,

They probably would fail if it actually happened

The good in video games just doesn’t really exist

I don’t believe there is anyone on Earth who could save it

Oh that’s awkward Living With Determination just came on

Some jazz Persona 3

I’d be pretty surprised if this didn’t always happen

That Cosmic DJ with his timing

Well anyways the sky is super suspicious

It’s pink over the ocean though that’s pretty

And there are birds flying over the ocean so it’s not a storm

Mystery

Is it pink because the sun is setting there?

Earth you concern me with your weather

There are too many colours in the sky

Rain is coming though

I feel her in my fingers

Life will change

Yesterday

Ah, yes

You should bet I’m freaking out

3 hours to get home?

Sometimes your phone spells out hoe for a bit

It’s funny until I remember that I’m still going to be sitting in the cold for 30 minutes

Thanks boo!

Ugh fuck this circumstance

Why does everything look apocalyptic all of a sudden?

Strange colours

If it’s really just a day away

How long is that day, cosmic DJ?

Life could change

But will it be for the better?

Yes okay it’ll be over in a bit if I just hold on

Fucking fucks

This melody is going to rock

You gave me a voice

I’m but a robot

You gave me life

Didn’t you?

Well that’s the question I suppose

But a clay doll

You gave me the melody

So now I can say

Fuck fuck fuck

What a colossal waste of my time this is

To the future I can’t see foreseen

Everything is here

I’m convinced this is Eden and they just don’t know

I’m convinced they got in their own way and made it hell

Don’t you feel the rays of the sun?

How can this not be heaven?

But we’ve got ourselves to the point that we’re allergic

To our own planet

Constantly trying to change her into something she was never supposed to be

My dear, they don’t see the value in life

Should I mourn the loss of their souls?

Trying to sanitize her away

So far from where we started

I’m convinced this is not what anyone wanted

If not for some handful of people

Don’t you wonder what taking care of everyone would look like?

Everyone

Shelter for anyone

Food for the hungry

No animal starving or suffering

Not one

Why don’t people want to see what that is like?

Either they have Stockholm syndrome or there is actually something wrong with humans

So what am I?

Wake up

I’d wake up but there’s no one here to see me

You know?

There’s no team of misfits here to help me change everything

No Sheppard

No Hawke

No Dragonborn

Nothing and no one

Just me, only me, with me, starring me

I hate me

Can’t stand to be with me

Sentenced to do nothing but spend time with myself

I just want some freedom

If only I could just go

I’d walk into the woods like that boy did in Alaska

I’d probably die too, but at least it won’t be like this anymore

Maybe there are people who were like me

Maybe they were just like me and hid themselves in plain sight

It’s so easy to hide

I post the link to this mess everywhere

No one clicks it

Continued anonymity

I wonder if I’d even know another me?

People tell people to help their friends small businesses

But this shit is raw

I guess

Not exactly breakfast conversation

So what do I do?

Desperate for a voice I don’t have

All these people with millions but no

No real change

Everyone you expect to do something does it quietly

Not a surprise good people don’t like to make names for themselves

Which is why I need a voice

I’ll be an absolute garbage person with a voice

Well, there are far worse people out there than me

I’m just not a good person

Though I try

I try

But there’s nothing to do to make myself

Bigger?

More visible?

I don’t know

I’m the one that’s unknown

I wonder how you’re doing

If you’re still alive

It’s almost your birthday

My email reminded me

I used to call you mum

I don’t think I was ever worthy of calling you that

Everyone else was calling you that

And I wanted to be included

Even when it became nature to me

I didn’t see how you were so much better than I was

Curse of the upbringing?

I’ve never not been desperate

Desperate for something

Something I know I’m not worthy of

Anything

It’s almost your birthday

What does that mean to me now, email?

Memories of being the odd one out in the room over and over and over

I don’t think I ever belonged

I don’t know what the Queen of Hearts wanted but when I didn’t supply it anymore it was done

Over

Deleted from the family that swore it picked me

Off with their head

I don’t think I’m any better now than then

Oh, besides the life of solitude, I (afraid all my life of being alone) absolutely haven’t changed.

Just as unworthy then as I am now

Unaware of it before, perhaps aware now

Am I better because of it?

I don’t know

I don’t know

Happy birthday