Elucidating Questions

They say “I have to laugh or else I’ll cry”

Cry then

Because laughing isn’t working

And police officers are emptying entire magazines and a half into their own cruisers over a fucking acorn

We have to stop laughing at dangerous people

It’s only funny because you weren’t in the vehicle being shot at

That poor dude, like someone just tried to kill him over an acorn

Madness, giving people guns and then teaching them to fear their own shadow

Can you imagine if some god had not been watching over that poor guy?

Apollo was not on their side

Not saying fatalities are god decided, just that the occasional miracle is

Gods can’t be watching at all times, I assume they have stuff to do

Shit goes sideways when they aren’t watching

Bless whomever was

Bless that poor guy

Have I ever mentioned ACAB?

Because ACAB

Because what the actual fuck is “reasonable force” against an acorn?

God why did I want to go out

Humans piss me off

Grubby hands all over my walker when I’m immunocompromised

This dude who thinks the entire seat belongs to him

I really hate sitting next to men on buses

He grabbed my leg earlier

Fucking dick

Humans pissing me off all day

I wish they’d just poof

Bye

Leave the world to me

I don’t need anyone I’ve proven that already

Hours alone

Then it’s torture to be with them

I sometimes wish I could understand them, but then I’d have to be like them

And I don’t want that

People who think that accessible seating on the bus is reserved for them even though I’m disabled and they are a stroller

So sick of them

Like sick

There’s this handful of pure, sweet, humans and then the rest are garbage

Like the average human

Is garbage

I try to be one of the sweet ones but I’m

Bitter

Like living a life like this doesn’t constitute bitterness

People act like if you’re bitter you’re the wrong one

Not the things that put the bitter taste there

Not the things they made it bitter

This constant passing of responsibility to the people that bad things happen to

Another reason that humans are garbage

I’m so disappointed in humanity

I didn’t know walkers were communal objects until I got one and now everyone keeps fucking touching it

Ugh

Humans

Said I missed the snow

Now it’s snowing

Universe what are you doing?

Trying to show me why I shouldn’t want it to be snowing?

lol

You terror

You know the drill, just don’t get me stuck somewhere

I appreciate the early present

It’s my birthday in just over a week

A late birthday present for my mum whose birthday is today

Let’s go commemorate it with getting holes put in my face

It’s not even cold

I proclaim now that it’s snow temperature

And the wind mysteriously doesn’t bother me anymore

I wish I knew why the cold never bothered me anyway

I wish things were answerable

Mysterious weather

I believe in you all twenty-four hours a day

I’m looking towards you

The snow is nice

Me, getting what I want

It feels like there’s a storm coming

My fingers hurt

The wind is agitated

This could just be another morning where I’m tricked and the Sun comes out

But there is a tenseness in the air

There are no birds singing

None in the sky

A far off seagull’s cry

Often the bird that rides the early winds of a storm

The clouds have a wrippled texture

The only thing is they aren’t moving

And yet

I heard before I saw the wind pick up

As the gusts blew through other things towards me

It is growing as we speak

Someone has let their in heat cat outside

I have been hearing her for days

Human beings shouldn’t be allowed to own other animals

We’re no good at caring for ourselves let alone another creature

Stormy Valentine’s

Well it’s not like I’ve ever had a Valentine so maybe this weather is on point

I was hoping for better for my mum’s birthday

But I probably should have known better

Cold from the wind chill

I miss the snow

It hurts to be on the losing team

The team of me that is losing so spectacularly

The universe subtly and not do subtly pushing me in the direction of someone who doesn’t even want to know I exist

Like I’m watching a video of you

And someone in the room just says Ramsey

Like I wasn’t already paying attention

Thinking of you and then there you are

It’s a mystery

Even when I try to ignore it it’s just there every day

There isn’t even anything I can do about it

Because I’ve tried explaining it away

It’s just insanity

Just madness

Probably something has broken in my brain that makes these connections

Because it’s impossible that I was actually right about any of my insanity before

I wish it would leave me be

Leave me to live

That strange list of artists that seem to revolve around eachother on my playlist like it’s the same day

Ah

Demons

And not even on my playlist

They find me

What a strange Kingdom to come to

Empty, but for me

It hurts but I will keep sending you love

You’re my only hope

The only hope I ever had

Seeing you say you love your job

Makes my heart set alight with love

Thank goodness

Thank goodness

Be happy you foolish fool.