Elucidating Questions

Maybe it’s just an echo of the past

This tethering

Got myself tied up in all these strings

But none of them connected

If I had a love powerful enough to stop all this needless bloodshed

Instead I have nothing

It’s difficult to even imagine

What is being done in the name of

Something

I really thought thou shalt not kill was pretty cut and dry

Revenge, disgusting, has been exacted and this is…

So far beyond the scope of revenge

I don’t know what makes people think it’s okay

I know some of those people would butcher me in a second

That doesn’t make it okay

I wish humans didn’t face persecution for where they were born

Where we land on this Earth to live

Shouldn’t become our death sentence

Children born and buried within months

Nothing wrong with them except they’re breakable

Like all the rest of the beings on this planet

Fragile

Precious

Gone

My Spotify is on a you kick

I’ll be disappointed if this is instrumental

I am disappointed

That’s never a surprise

Apparently it’s you-strumental right now

I wish I could get a master list of everything you’ve written and just get all of it

Because there’s something redeemable about you

In my mind anyways

Oh yeah I’ll say

No, nevermind

Pensive silence

Waiting for the cry of the guitar

Because your passion drips from the cords

I don’t have any bridges to burn

Burned them all

I wish I could learn what is redeemable about you

But my mind just makes itself up, you see

I’m always the bad news

Always

Wouldn’t it be nice to live in a world where I could just walk up to you

I don’t even think I want to look for love anymore

Even though the melody is everywhere

Looked for so long

Just to turn up empty

Yes, it is I, Astoria through and through

Still composing

Into nothing

You’d never get my eyes right unless you’ve dreamt of me

Somehow

This part where there’s definitely not a snare and it’s you

I don’t know what is happening but everything is instrumental

I wish you’d choose me

I wish someone would choose me

Someone besides me

If the answer is supposed to be me

It’s not

And I don’t have any value in myself

It’s you

That’s where my love is

For some bewildering reason

It’s you

My mask has become a piece of armour

Hiding my true visage from the world

So I can sing my songs on the bus and most people won’t notice

So I can make that face at a customer

End facial expression policing I’m allowed to feel things

I’m human

Damn it

And once again Mariana’s Trench sends me to space

But I can experience it because my mask keeps my expression hidden

I can get lost in it

I wonder if anyone else experiences music like I do?

The Sun,

Ever lifting me up

Then tethering me back down

Cosmic DJ

Can you see past the mask and know my true self?

I tell you

I tell you all of the things I think

Save the night

You know, forever unfaithful, sorry

What a world to exist in

Where I have to insist my humanity while simultaneously denying it

Yes I am human

No I’m not like any I’ve seen

I wonder who I’m supposed to be

Should I hide away like I do?

It’s a mystery

Dare I get close to anything

Anyone

See I can justify animals

The life between meeting and final goodbye is filled with love

But humans?

They are filled with strife they force on others

See I put my strife in a hole on the net

I wish I could find what I’m looking for

So I could take off the armour.

Went out without my contacts

My eyes feel naked

Did you know that was a feeling?

Naked eyes?

Bizarre the human body

I wonder if I’d want to keep on living if I knew what came after life

So many ways the body betrays its host

It’s all so very uncertain

And it’s not so much the unknown as the nothing that I’m so afraid of

Imagine being nothing

That is more terrifying than hell to me

So now I’m on the make hell better committee

But it would appear I’m one of few

No matter how much

I wish I could save the world with my love

Like I saw the title

世界一初恋

And that’s what I wanted

The kind of love that could change the world

Something to show them

Something

I know it wouldn’t be enough

I don’t know what is right

I just know what is wrong

I can’t start thinking about what the right way to do things is until everyone is thinking of it because this is not something any human should be doing alone

I just wish I could be exceptional enough to change the world

Exceptional like Jupiter

Exceptional like something

I wish I spoke the same language as all these humans I’m apparently related to

There’s nothing weirder than speaking allegedly the same language but no one hears you

I wish someone could love me

I’d be amazed by them every day