Elucidating Questions

Somebody to Love is like

Offensive

Not because I don’t or because I won’t

But because he didn’t

I hope he spent his well days living it up.

But then again that may have been what created the didn’t

So many souls without someone else

I am but one of billions in our time on Earth

Being able to love is something only special people get

My sister didn’t get hers either

And now she’s a statistic of the toxic drug supply

Happy endings

Unreal people would have to be real and then they’d have to like me

Not like in my head where I could pretend anyone would be my friend

I don’t even want to physically love someone

Snuggles not withstanding

Sex wise

Seriously though

What’s the deal with today?

When first love ends

If only it would end

Or was it when love for the first time ends?

Tiny lizard

I don’t know the actual name of this song

A relic

Thank you and goodbye you painful one sided love

As if I could ever say that

Though I’ll sing it again

I’ve sung it a hundred times

So many words not for me

Here’s one,

Singing in Japanese while simultaneously typing in English

I’m sure that’s a skill

That part there

好きって方

When we come back to this time next year

Well I’ll probably be doing the same thing

And you’ll be not

That completed feeling

Not until there’s no more me to feel

The clouds have finally arrived

I hope his day doesn’t resemble mine

I’m sure this moment will pass

Never a question answered

As it does

Every moment that seems like the moment thus far has not been the moment

I am beyond entertaining the thought of there even being a moment

Dearest

意味の無い dearest

I want to put you at ease

But reality is too cruel for that

How can some random person inexplicably obsessed be safe?

Well obsessed is a strong word for what I am

It’s not like I’m the one creating intrusive thoughts and queing up music

I’m going to kill the wind

I’d like a proof of life

I always worry about you around now and I don’t know why

Inexplicable things

Yes I do have two hair ties

Thank you for that reminder Sun

I’m crazy

With reason

When your best friend is the Sun you’ll get it

Did Delphi priestesses know you better?

I wonder what he is

Five

Five

Spotify says Happy Birthday Josh

Apparently

I wonder what extremely over souped up vehicle you drive when they Sun’s out

What I don’t know

What I do

I come along to bring something

To the world

Right?

Maniacal laughter?

I just want to see one second of existence from him to know all is well

Without saying a thing with your cold air

Someday it’ll be worth it

Someday I get to exist, right?

You seem to be having fun with those flying newspapers wind

And just like that the roses have bloomed

Strange weather

Maybe it mirrors us

Maybe if we were less strange

Oh rude

The Sun is just so pretty today

頑張れ

You you

I’m just the world’s strangest cheerleader

Who is forever having an existential crisis

How others don’t it’s a mystery to me

I don’t think there’s exactly a need for me to be here

Blustery fellow asside

But there never really was a reason for cheerleaders anyways

Yeah?

Pointless me

Can we just all agree on not trying to blow down my house for a moment?

I’m surprised that chair is still sitting there

Across from me

As if some listening person were there

I now fully expect it to blow away

Things I acknowledge tend to do that

Oh fine then

I will listen to him

Spotify only played the first song for me to skip into the second

Three?

In a row?

Like not shuffled just bam bam bam

Well it is his day after all

A day to you and stuff

I will most emphatically be not shutting my mouth

So antagonistic these old ones

Though I get the screaming

風

Chill friend

You say the silliest thing you boarder crosser

You something linked to that one

The wind needs to make like his more recent stuff

You’re making the trees cry

Okay but it is preferable to hear you howling

Than those damn wind chimes

Staying alive

And I am

Alive

Living would be an over exaggeration

Time goes by

Life goes on

I remember a time when I was sick

That I was very young

Like this soreness in my thumb

Just letting myself be pulled from one spirit to the next

I was so sick

Yeah, you think I’m crazy now?

Running around in circles

In forests and oceans

Entirely on a journey I was not actually on

This is crazy managed

It’s not a map it’s a web

In the web

I solemnly swear I am crazy all the time but I

I really just want to love something

That maybe might love me back?

This 深い愛する可能

Love I think I have it

But you haven’t given me the chance

深い means deep but it’s a deep that can also be applied to a forest

Deep like

Maybe I could get lost in it

But I think I know my limits

I just ignore them

Why not?

I wish they could all have my head for a day and then we’d see who was successful

All those

Crazy people continuing on like nothing is happening

I’m putting returned clothes into the bin and then all at once I think

This is so wrong there are bombs falling

Children dying

One of many people who went about their day and returned clothes

Some of whom forced me even though it was past the date/final sale

Such mundane bullshit

I’m not gonna say who’s more crazy

But there’s something to be said of a bunch of people who can just like brush off children dying and continue with their day

I feel everything

I’m sure some psychological person would like to say my feeling strongly about everything is a disorder

But they probably wouldn’t blink twice at the people who aren’t affected

Leaves blowing in the wind that is back

Did you do this to try to prove me wrong when I thought the wind wouldn’t blow on a sunny day the other day?

You wouldn’t believe how often it does that

Oh dear wind

Always fuck you just a little bit ya jerk

There are some obscene heart emojis that should go with that sentence

All the weather just needs to take a bit of a chill pill is all

Actually if all beings on Earth corporeal and non included could just chill that would be great

And they call me emotional

All I can say is slow down

Suddenly bees

One bee

Anyways

At any point in time I only recommend consuming a handful it’s a lot

I’m a lot

So many years of feelings

It’s like I’m on some cheating ferris wheel that dunks you beneath the water for the bottom and then

Before you reach the top

Voip you’re on the other side about to be dunked in again

My bio grandmother believes I belong in a mental institution

Not that those exist

And I’m sure putting me in a smaller cage with no contact with even the friends I am friends with who are not friends with me

Would work great

Y’know?

Locked away from seeing the Sun, stars, and Moon which have been the ones

The ones keeping me sane

I am crazy

I don’t believe I ever denied that

I just think everyone else is also crazy

This world is fucked

The roses are blooming

Good news only June has been boring

Surprise when I ask for good news I get no news

Shocker

No, but, really,

Do slow down

I don’t know whether it’s actually fit for human consumption

Good morning you

Happy birthday and those such things

I hope you take a moment or so

Away from being a genius

Just to enjoy this life you’ve built

It’s something I swear

I’ll leave out all my feelings about all the other things for a moment

You do have something

It’s worth being proud of

I wish you’d see your blinding light

How I do for a moment

In those moments I’m inexplicably back to thinking of you

Maybe it’s just never the right time

But don’t leave things to the right time

The right time never comes

There really should be an epic guitar solo

Not that I’d expect to understand what is and isn’t allowed but

Guitar

I hope that people wish you happy birthday

I hope this day is not just a dark day spent alone thinking

Joy to you

I wish people were more musically intelligent

Your music deserves to be better than any of the music I’ve heard lately

A day for you

I hope it’s a day for you

Do something fun just for the heck of it

Thank you for staying on this rock with me for another round

Just that

Thank you for staying with me

On this beautiful green gem