Elucidating Questions

I don’t like pitbulls

Breedist

Applying stereotypes of the breed to an innocent creature not the same as the others

I tried to think humans don’t have breeds for a moment and then realised

We are breeds

Not races just different shapes and colours who get told to be how they’re expected

Like dogs

Not good at escaping our animal mirrors we hold them close

Expecting the expected

But they have behaviours that don’t come from in they’re just as outside as the things that make us us

Size

Different heights different lives

Shapes

Different mirrors

So is the behaviour of

A breed

The behaviour created from inside?

Or out?

When you see a pitbull, how you treat it differently

A chihuahua and a great dane

We treat them differently

So the behaviour is different

Habits formed thoughts fleeting

You see an eye that seems familiar reaching

How contrary the world tilts doesn’t fade the picture

It brightens

But I have to do everything I can

To keep it lit

Does anyone want to explain the interposed

Death god

Over the seed?

Yes

I shouldn’t have written that stuff because there’s no way he’d do anything with a bad sense like that

He’s not a bad person

But that leads me back to ones

One’s question is

Love?

I love you

And then two rails

How fucking dare you

His bottom lip is sticking out I can see it

Because three

I don’t think I could love you

And

Truth or dare?

Did you know she wanted to kill herself?

Did you know he wanted the save both of you?

Do you know how much my love costs?

One two three

That’s all I remember

Can you imagine?

This brain has blocked out your song

From trauma it caused itself

Curious

What’ll you do with the third I wonder?

Do I die like they want me to?

Always feeding their secrets

He thinks I’m faking still

He thinks this is fake

I’d have to die to prove it

But that would be too easy

So instead?

I’m going to prove I love him

By living

Oh no

Hahaha

Oh no if my dreams played out in reality

There would be a giant banana in the ocean

Stop being ridiculous!

I yelled

It became a massive whale

Oh good god

Cars would roll over and keep driving

I can fly but none of you can bitches

Chester

Hello

Quiet meetings in the dark

Oh can you imagine

Joshua Ramsay is waiting at

¿Home?

It’s always a nice house

And can you imagine

I time things perfectly

Hold every conversation

Command the flood relief team

Oh imagine

The quakes the buildings stand up to, still terrifying

Imagine the hours and days spend journeying

Journeying

And the end of the journey

Always cuts short

Imagine

But how does it end?

Every day

Every night every second

How.

Does.

It.

End?

Nightmares disguised as

Idyllic

Beautiful landscapes

No ending no ending

I escaped the fire and ran from the house

I’m often running from the house

Imagine running

Imagine the only real remembered moments being a moment with Chester or a moment in his arms and

Every other second fleeting

It becomes too much

Fuck this

I tell

I’m changing the scene

I run

Straight to him

I can’t do this alone

I tell him

Please don’t make me do it alone

Crying as he touches my hair

Sweet words calming fallacies

But I do it alone

Saving the dying animals

Getting my siblings out

Doing something worthwhile

But there is no end

It just goes on

And no matter how I fight

There is no dawn

Because when dawn comes it comes empty and alone

I wake up

I look out

And there I am

At home

Home alone

She screamed

My god she screamed

Brace yourself

He whispered

I was more prepared

Her scream that tore

Face broken in pain

How I’ve been there before

How I’ve been there before

Oh I’m so sorry this world is breaking you

I’m sorry

That was all I could say as she lay sobbing on the ground

I’m sorry

I hope it gets better

And he said

I’ll find a song for you

And now I’m safe in the arms of the wind

And Chester’s scream

Somewhere I belong

I hope she’s okay

I wish I could have helped