Elucidating Questions

Love the earth until death do us part

Fighting the sky, fighting.

Lightning strike, sun’s rays, the messenger sends

Death

Well isn’t that nice – Hermes

No need to obliviate

They’re oblivious

As you disappear from the photos from the days from their mouths

No need to obliviate

You can stand on a bus where there should be ten open seats where everyone takes two to three to themselves

No need to obliviate

You’re obviously

Already gone

Now life just has to catch up

I wake in such a foul mood

With all the ferocity of a rabid dog

Off the scent of the hunt for weeks

I wake with a gnawing in my stomach

An emptiness in my heart

And a madness that has never been kept behind walls

I wonder how he got them in the chamber

Did he ask nicely?

I wake in such a foul mood

The dropping from there to here

With a bite waiting for the snap

It never quite sinks in

Never quite sinks in

That every morning I awake

Alone

Tired

Hungry

And here once more

Everything I begged not to happen just before blessed sleep stole me from his world

Only temporarily

Only temporarily

Making fifty thousand tiny changes all at once

But they said they felt better

Maybe because they could actually talk

I wish I could make myself over with friends

I’m only alone alone

Frightened adults gathering around the child non parentus adult

I don’t know how I got here

I don’t know how this happened

But I live with the consequences of actions I still don’t

Understand

I can’t hold it against her

With a life like this I’d want to graduate from us too

But looking back

I feel like that happened a long time ago

Right around the rabbit

It’s difficult to know, to realise

To know

You’ve never been loved

All the people

You’ve met just fell away

Never worried about losing you

Never got as attached as you

Never did

Never did

That you’ve never been loved

That no one thinks about you and misses you

Because you’ve never shut anyone out in a way they couldn’t get to you

They’re not coming

Circling the cage

The cage is getting smaller

Hands on ears fetal sitting occupying

Living in the cage

He steps foot around it

One two three

Turn

One two three

Only pacing two sides of four about-face

Alone in the cage

No one is coming

He whispers

They never loved you

They never cared

Gone one and all and those who are aren’t afraid to lose you

Not one person is afraid to lose me

What a pitiful state alone tonight alone in the cage

Though I may be alone tonight alone in the cafe

The only one open

But no one will find me

And another day will pass

Empty handed

Bag ripped to shreds

The contents long gone

The road never ends

My god

It never ends

I’ve given into madness

Given into madness

When I was alone on the floor

They reminded me to soar

I always really panic

I always really panic

I inhale til my lungs are sore

Because I have no one anymore

But stirring whispers trailing fingers

You haunt every second of my life

No remnants tracing lost thoughts racing

You haunt all seconds of my life