Elucidating Questions

And so it goes so it goes

My soul room filled with holes

In the place where I should find

Courage, strength, peace of mind

Swirling darkness in my head

There’s nothing here

Empty

Dead

Don’t have a place to reform

The place, there’s only now perform

It spirals quiet in the centre

There is no room for me to enter

笑えないから

笑わないから

笑われないから

笑ってないから

At night I feel restricted

Like there’s a roof over my head

There’s a roof over my head

We didn’t think

When we designed shelter

That we might need the stars to align

Ourselves

Sometimes the wind rustles my hair like a great hand

And whispers

Don’t give up

Sometimes a butterfly floats past

No monarchs.

Which I said.

Oh great sigh I am going to be bored

Aren’t I?

Ah, well.

Bored between whatever this new thing is

Awkward unknown fumbling

Crazy no more

You poor pitiful thing

So wound up in the future

You didn’t see the present

But no one has ever come for me

I mutter under my breath

Because it’s true

And the thought that someone could is beat down by

All the times that it was proven wrong

How many lonely nights ended in lonely mornings which ended in lonely nights

One time I believed that someone would come for me

And in the bypassing of those around me I know that isn’t true anymore

I am merely something you see that disappears when gone

No object permanence?

No that’s the impermanence of a person

The disappearing when they’re out of your eyes there is nothing to catch the disappearance

When no one is coming for me

I don’t have to worry

That someone will come for me

After all I must like being alone

It’s all I ever am

I don’t like pitbulls

Breedist

Applying stereotypes of the breed to an innocent creature not the same as the others

I tried to think humans don’t have breeds for a moment and then realised

We are breeds

Not races just different shapes and colours who get told to be how they’re expected

Like dogs

Not good at escaping our animal mirrors we hold them close

Expecting the expected

But they have behaviours that don’t come from in they’re just as outside as the things that make us us

Size

Different heights different lives

Shapes

Different mirrors

So is the behaviour of

A breed

The behaviour created from inside?

Or out?

When you see a pitbull, how you treat it differently

A chihuahua and a great dane

We treat them differently

So the behaviour is different