Elucidating Questions

Sitting on the floor clutching my otter and sobbing

Crying me sorrow in the fabric of my comfort animal

I’m crying because I’m alone

I’m crying because my family is gone

Then

I’m crying because he doesn’t love me

I’m crying because every day without him reminds me he’s not here

Like my family

Crying like a child the music plays on

That’s enough of that

He says I think me

He takes the music

And gently silences it

Then I am in the kitchen

Pacing and whispering and still more tears fall

There’s no handle in this safe

I go to check the mail which hasn’t arrived

I still say I’m okay

I’d still say I’m okay

That was a big earthquake

The world slipped away until all I had was

Crying

And

Pain

She was the only mother I ever knew

And that’s not a slight on my mother, that’s a slight on my mother many years ago

She’s wonderful

Being mad at a memory doesn’t mean you’re mad at the person now

My madness threw me on the floor

Crying into my otter while Hedley blasted away

And then another

And then it started to sting

My life eh?

Even the music

There’s so much I don’t…

Know.

But there’s never anyone to catch me

I started crying to Die Young

No

The Kesha one.

Self culture

It’s there isn’t it?

It sits underneath no one ever sees it

When something hurts it we keep it quiet

Do you ever wish if only they would see it?

So you wouldn’t ever keep it quiet

The one who misses her mum

The one who misses his mum

But we know we can’t go home

You let go

You abandoned us

We don’t know who to trust

There’s no way they’ll love us

There’s no way anyone won’t know

What this was from long ago

But somehow inside we both know

Exactly what happened

Hey dad

Your name is, like, famous or something

I’m coming over

So I hope you get to tell everyone what to do

Here and in your house

I’m hungry, bread please

Forgive us for being assholes, because we forgave those assholes

Stop showing me these delicious cakes

And if I’m being bad it’s your job to tell me not to

Amen

You know there’s a part of me that still really respects you even though you never showed me any reasons why I should

I still smile just a bit like it’s funny when your music comes on just as the world would

I still imagine meeting

Like a fool

But maybe I was wrong about the slant of the songs after all

Maybe you’re laughing while trying not to lol.

Can you tell me more about addiction person who is facing addiction?

I FUCKING WANT IT

But it’s because I’ve been so good about nothing.

Yeah

That’s true too