Elucidating Questions

I keep sitting here in pieces

Not expecting you to read this

But I wish that I could say something to you

Walking round in circles

Trapped inside these four walls

And there’s nothing in this world that I can do

Wishing you could see me

At the very least you’d see me

Thinking I’ll forever be insane

Beautiful music dreamer

Apollo drawing nearer

Could you just be somewhere I can see?

You’re so very very busy

I know that you’ll miss me

If only you could spend some time with me.

I don’t trust anyone

Even looking with a heart open

Is it open?

Or is it covered and hidden away?

Is it hidden away?

Or is it out here and bleeding where no one can see it but they could see it if they so happened to push any number of correct buttons.

I want to trust someone with it but it’s so battered and bruised

Who would want something like this?

I’m sure any other would do

Still waiting for someone to say the right thing

Or a daylight calling from you

Am I just mimicking human interaction?

Is there any real reason or attraction?

Is it just saying words to fill the space?

Looking over the answers before masking my face?

I just want to find someone

Who’s still here when the day is done

Did I imagine it?

Maybe my reality is twisted

Maybe I made it up

Maybe I’m delusional

My reality never matches anyone elses

People don’t make the same connections I do

Maybe it’s all in my head

Maybe I’m just dreaming again

I don’t really know him anyways

I don’t know anything about him

Who would sit here and watch with me

As many films as we could from Ghibli

And welcome all these little friends

Support me when the day ends

Who could love me with out it ending in pain?

All of the love I had was in vain

Is it all right to only wait for that spark?

Am I supposed to somehow reshape my heart?

And higher, desire, and fire

He kept me awake again last night

Another song stuck in my mind on repeat

Singing about never ever ever

Getting over her

And I just lie there awake wondering why?

Of all the songs that happened yesterday

And that song didn’t even happen

Would it be a miracle?

If she just so happened to do the exact same thing and hecked off to do her own thing?

Does she even know how beautiful he is?

I wonder.

No wonder,

I don’t know a thing.

But the songs keep coming

Glimmering