Elucidating Questions

Talking about inadequacy

It’s looking at all that

Versus this

As if I could ever stand up to that

Sol

You came out for just a moment as the song ended

And I can still feel your warmth

Trying to break through again

It’s beautiful

But it’s

It’s just about his ordinary life

Meanwhile in the world things are happening

And this continuing on like thousands haven’t been erased recently

There’s just more important stuff than supporting nothing right now

I’ve noted his lack of enthusiasm about it

Offering it up days later like an after thought

I wish he could see what I see

Hermes send him something that will get it through his thick skull that he is worth it

Worthy

Maybe that is the thing we of this kind of too much struggle with the most

Tiny tits in the yard

I’m not even sure if we do have this akin between us

Read between the lines so damn hard I can’t think straight

That’s alright I’ll never be straight

I love you

You stupid beautiful man

Has anyone noticed the winds?

They come on faster

Stay longer

And blow harder

And it’s just another thing going wrong

But once again I seem to be the only one noticing it

Water drying too fast after the rain

Too little rain to begin with

We know winds can travel at hundreds of kilometres an hour on other planets

Yet we seem to have no fear of it

The increased numbers of storms are on the radar

“Increased climate events”

And all that

But they don’t mention the mundane

They never do

It’s always about the big stuff

They don’t seem to care that the little stuff is what is adding up to create the big stuff

Ever

In any time

And I find myself cursing it

Damn wind

But it is our clear warning that we have gone too far

The gust I saw a few nights ago

It’s not the wind speeds that are the problem is the strength with which they come on

She’s going to wreak destruction upon us

If we haven’t already shot eachother to death

You can’t tell me the universe doesn’t do me favours

A rainy day, but I came out just in time to see the Sun

My dear Sol

To come out and feel the realness of sunlight on my skin

So others feel the way he studies their face with his light

Like a thousand thousand fingers

Death is inevitable

I entertain the thought of being immortal

But I know it is true

It is that I can come to you, again

Tears have fallen, I am but am exhausted husk of grief

But you touch me and I can feel that maybe it’s okay

That it was awful

And she is gone

But you and I are still here and you parted the clouds yet again to let me know it

There is a gentleness in the Universe’s timing

I would have suffered so much if I had come home to her gone

This has been yet another day where grief is all I know

But I can feel all of you out there

Heh

There are so many of you gathered around the Sun right now

Endings are hard and I have signed up for many

But somehow

Somehow

When my soul cries out for someone to just hold me together for a moment

There’s that big ol’ shiny ball

It may be selfish to think that the Sun would do such a thing for me

To be with me at moments I most need

Someone

And the planets just so happening

Space is weird

The Universe is weird

You and your strange cosmic timing

This place is far more mystical than we will ever know

Thank you for laying upon my skin for a moment dear Sol

It makes me feel like I’m not alone

Oh grief

I just said I’ve had enough

So Onyx dies why not?

My sweet baby

Oh how I’ll miss your broken wheeks

In my arms

You time these things so pointedly

Universe

Because would I have rathered that she go through it without me?

Like it has to happen

Eventually

Signing up for the life of an animal friend means signing up for the death of said friend as well

Well it should

She was so small

I will never forget

My sweet Onni

They fight more valiantly for life than I have seen any creature

I am in awe of their magnificence

Until we meet again

Lay the path of the Ferryman

In his boat do find

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