This duality
The two of us
I love everyone and everything
I hate humanity and want them all to disappear
And it tips over so easily
Balancing love and compassion on top of a coin
That flips at the slightest provocation
My exhaustion of this world
All you fucking worms in your garden that is literally on fire and you keep fucking going to work
I want to protect you all
I want to save you
I want to become a magical girl and become a corrupted witch and reject the corruption and become a god and
It never works like that though
Every tiny thing I do to try to make this world better overrun by a throng of evil people
And I hate you all for not listening to a fucking word I say
And I love you and want you all to live happy lives instead of the lives you’re struggling through
二人共
Us
I can feel you through the glass that separates us
Thrumming with rage and despair
And me on the other side trying desperately to make this bleeding world stop
You’d burn it down
I’ve wondered if you’re some corrupted Messiah
But I don’t know how to stop you if the coin flips
What if I reach for control and it slips through my fingers and you’re allowed free?
Thank the gods I don’t have power
You’d end the world
But why do they have power?
You wouldn’t want to burn it down if it wasn’t this cruel and slanted
Sometimes I feel the failure of Christianity
Jesus died for their sins and then they went ahead and invented thousands more, worse
And I feel that old fear of God
What would be the retribution if Christianity was real?
That angry God
That jealous God
And humans took advantage of the kindness of his so called son
Would he resemble you?
Would the chewed up, spat out, taken for granted Jesus resemble you?
Would his father?
I feel so normal until you burst from my mind
How do I quiet the darkness?
Am I supposed to?
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