Elucidating Questions

I wish I could make words say what I want them to say

They always take shape into something else in the minds of others

If I could just be to the point

If what I said could matter

I’m terrified

Terrified words will be my undoing

When at my core I just want there to be less anger around

I tend to inspire it in people

I don’t want violence to be an answer for anything and yet

I have moments when I forget it

I should be trying to put what I want into the world

You make it so hard though

You really do

Peace, comfort, and happiness

Three things I don’t even know if I believe in anymore

And words are so dangerous

They tell people what you’re thinking

And I’m sorry I can’t be a person who thinks one thing and says another

The reality of how many people can is what terrifies me so much

How am I supposed to feel safe in a world of people who can kill second-hand and not feel guilt?

And battling with myself and what humanity is

Every being deserving of life

Let’s not care instead

You never know the circumstances anyways

Nothing is what it seems to be

Except me and no one will accept me as such

I don’t know how to walk this world with words that could mean death

Too much free will

Why can’t you trust anyone to not kill?